Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

(To sing or to be sang to? i am. Both.)

She can't tell him she loves him
Or he'd just be scared and drift away.
With all she's worth, she acts.
With arms wide open and ever-waiting.

Seasons Call @ 3:46 PM

Monday, August 28, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

Death is an Art.
My next master piece.

Seasons Call @ 9:43 PM

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

VIVACE 2006 =)



Join J.C.C & meet Ichimaru-chan !!!

Its sunday & i'm preparing for week 2. Killers!!
There's so much prep work/readings/projects to do,i'd just breakdown.
Haha...Benny's enlisting soon.Bet we all can't wait to see the classic Bald head.

On the Otherside,

muahaha...may i indulge in this eyecandy code-named "vampire".i can see you but you can't see me muahaha...*evil laughter* Deb is "Siao(mad)". * CLICK *

You disappoint me.Does it have to be this way? * CLICK *

You may think THIS is too good to be true.
You may think things'll be alot simpler
If i were like the average selfish human.
But trust me, there's no agenda whatsoever
For You are more important to a Woman. * CLICK *
Somethings

Signing off ;;
Debsters Seasons Call @ 1:24 AM

its been a week of school & project responsibilities & homework is rapidly piling up. Thanks goodness for the last minute escape to JB last monday with Max,Joel,Zhonghan,JJ,Joel and Marie. Seasons Call @ 1:23 AM

Shoots from SMU convocation 19/08/2006 & the chaotic night afterwards.

BLog's pretty much under-construction so bear with the backdated posts & may these pictures tell a thousand words.
i need help with the tagboard & other features.
Can anyone help? Seasons Call @ 1:46 AM

Blogskin changed as of 18/08/2006.

Up since 4am.
Bad Headache.
Not uncommon.

Alot has happened last weekend & Monday.
Laters. Seasons Call @ 6:44 AM

Timetable for Week One Term One 21/08/06-27/08/06

Two Day week!!! Wtf am i missing out something? i seem to be the only "lucky ass" to get a 2-day week.

Tue 1530-1845 Business,Govt&Society G3
Thurs 1200-1515 Intro Stats B G5
1715-1845 Analytical skills G15

BOSS is down... Can't Bid for more modules yet!!




I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS.
WHERE ARE YOU NOW?
I'm lost without you.
Hear me...
Seasons Call @ 11:47 AM

Holy Crap. Time isn't on my side...

I just realised 18th Aug is just this friday!
Lost track of time since all the camps started.
This friday is my basic theory test for driving -_-" ...
*pauses*

Again.


Latino Dance Competition is on the first wk of October.
Which means, i've less than 6 weeks to learn 2 more dance-styles & polish up
my current one. Zhiwei i really hope you picked the right partner to place these high expectations on XD...

5th Kyu Grading.
I don't know exactly when it is but i gotta train hard. Seasons Call @ 11:56 AM

I didn't have a second to stone today. Woohoo! i love days where i don't laze around.

morning;;GYM

Noon;; Bought PURE ACOUSTIC 2-CD
Lunch with M.J.
Getting acquainted with his Twin, M.H.
Meeting up with Gaia, Daniel & Marz 4 early dinner

Evening;; Latino
Accomplised 90% of my dance steps by my 2nd lesson,
which is suppose to take 4 lessons.

I need a miracle.
I know i'm living on borrowed time.
When everything is meant to be broken,
I just want you to know who i am ... Seasons Call @ 10:55 PM

Old school soundtrack...Pretty much reflect what i'm feeling at the moment. Seasons Call @ 10:16 AM

It felt like the longest cab ride. No one knows I’m here except for the stranger Uncle Cabby, Rei thought to herself. Orange lights from street lamps and shadows from the passing trees rushed across the vehicle window. Rei laid across the leather seat faced up. The Cabby would have thought she was just some punk who just got into a midnight fight and has not had enough ‘fun’; some brat trying to pull a ‘fright’ stunt on a cabby by hiding from the front mirror, he presumed.

“We’re there, miss.”

Koji (The only person that came to Rei’s mind.)

Koji saw a cab stopping by his gate in a distance. He figured it must be Rei, who called him earlier on the phone asking to put up at his place for the night. She said it was important. He waited by the front door, partly figuring why the black silhouette was limping out of the cab and walking in an unstable way.

“Rei ?? Rei !! What the hell happened??!! You’ve…”

Blood-stains. She probably knew. He was speechless.

She had cuts all over from head to toe and on every visible body part that her clothes couldn’t cover from the shreds. Her hair was a disaster, with several strands smeared across her face from perhaps the tears, dried stains and dirt. To him, she was like a princess that just ran through a forest of thorns and obstacles. She was beautiful; the sort of beauty you’d find in the eyes of sweet pink-nosed strays.

“ Don’t look at me like that okay…(Rei’s eyes waivers.) I need a bath”

“Err…Right. Okay. Let me help you.”

Koji helped her up to the bathroom. Despite the severe state she was in, prideful Rei remained conscious of her appearance, secretly resentful of her current looks. Rei loved Koji; the kind of love in which you’d want to possess or impress that special someone even if it’s just for the moment. Superficial some may call it. But can we blame someone for being short sighted when the hope for something lasting seems vague and non-existent? People try. But when they fail, they can only settle for something less.
“Is this the best excuse I can come up with?” Rei thought to herself, “ I must be looking pathetic with the shower over my head, with water washing off the dirt and soaking up my clothes…this is ridiculous. Why am I even here?”

Its been 45 minutes. Koji began to worry why Rei hadn’t gotten out of the shower. Its 4: 21 am and he was bored waiting by the coffee table.

“ Rei you alright in there?”

No Answer. Only the sounds of the rushing shower.

“ Rei, don’t play a fool okay. Can you answer me…”

Koji barged into the bathroom, which was fortunately not locked. Rei appears to have fallen asleep on the bathroom floor with the shower drenching her clothing to the skin. He shook her up. Rei awaked with an uncomfortable jerk, partly confused why she’s in Koji’s arms all drenched and chilly. Recollecting herself, she wiped her pale face dry and clumsily tried to stand alone.

“Whoa. whoa…Stay right where you are” Koji stretched over for a towel to dry her up, “ Seriously, you sure you’re okay? Sure you don’t need a doctor? You haven’t even told me how did you end up in all this…”

“Koji, I’m fine…I just…want some sleep” said Rei, who sounded obviously in evasion. Koji didn’t interrogate further.

Would you have told him you love him if you knew this was your last hour? Didn’t think so. I suppose she was too cowardly to even confess the sanctuary this place, this person, this atmosphere gave her. But can a fool judge the foolish? Rei had too much in her mind for her own good. Any person would have thought it was schizophrenia. Well if the shrink couldn’t help, this can’t be a mental sickness, Rei reasoned to herself. What the hell were her parents thinking to have her sent to the institution?! For now, it was anywhere but ‘home’ where her parents would probably have been frantically waiting for updates from the institution on her “escape”. That was probably 6 hours ago. Fortunately her condition was kept a family secret or Koji would probably have turned her away, she figured. She was nobody if anybody to him anyway…

Is this a second chance? Her, 6 hours ago would have expected herself dead and lifeless by now. “I’m not supposed to be alive.”

I wanted to end it all…God I was feeling so tired of having to prove myself again and again. I had nothing to lose for no one will remember; I’ve something to prove…I was not mad. I was in sound mind. Death was what I wanted…then. Now I’m alive…in his arms, with the privilege of watching him in slumber. Sigh…fool. Koji, you’re supposed to be hugging me to sleep. You look ridiculous fast ahead-asleep sitting up-right while I rest on your lap looking at you in pleasure. If heaven would be kind, time could freeze at this very moment. Under normal circumstance Koji, I could never dare to be so close to you. For we aren’t like we were before and it just wasn’t right. But I don’t think I care anymore. This room of yours is like another dimension, untouched by earthly boundaries.

You’re the most beautiful thing I know. But your image is blurring up…

You were the last image I thought of when I took the plunge to what I thought was death. In my final breath, you were indeed the last person in the flesh. Was this fate for my second chance?

Seasons Call @ 10:58 PM

::: BAbez at FOP :::


Spritual Revival??


You can't really see me here but (back; Right)Clarence's face is a classic !!!
Can't stop laughing!!!



Taken by Elle !




" This joy your invitation brings
Also takes me closer to malice
Sober & Aware of the consequence
To bear.Still, i'm wondering Alice.

While i retire into slumber
I want you to remember
How much of Everything is given
To an entity so vague & non-existant. "

An Extract of "Untitled" which i wrote on a sleepless night at camp.




Freshmen Team Bldg Camp left me with mix feelings.

The People: A really creative & motivated Bunch.
No regrets in meeting em' &
LOOKING 4WARD 2 OUR NEXT MEET !!! (CONVOCATION/BASH/ETC)

The Games: Some Forgettable. Some Superb fun.
Some Down-right Dirty!!!

Pictures: Almost none. Only Hp Cam pics from Yeena's.

The Highlight: Frisbee!
We had Frisbee & they didn't.
KAYAKKING!!! Alot of team work & energy there!
Fell like 3 times into the water. Klutz!
Captains ball. Cause' D23 were the CHAMPIONS!

EMERGENCY: I've a new Stray Cat at home. Female.Beautiful & very peaceloving.
But how do i get Dousa & Beady(her name) to get along ???!!! X(( Seasons Call @ 10:05 AM

A fruitful week?

31/07/06 ~ 06/08/06


Friday

- Oversleeping to make up for the past 48 hours of sleeplessness. DUH!
- Bumming.
- Last min plans to go for Festival of Praise 2006 with Marie/Elle/Elvin&Clarence.

Spritual revival was wonderful. Complimented by my aunt's advice at satuday's family dinner, i should start getting my feet on the ground.

*Photos underconstruction*



Thursday

- In the wee hours of the morning, evil-me went crashing a friend’s place who’s whole family was overseas. Didn’t get more than half an hour of sleep but had a lot of fun staying up to interrupt my friend’s homework, musing around the house, talking till sunrise & hearing the sounds of daybreak….
- Academic talks. I was late & damn i was the only one walking in late X(( Stoned half the time. And Lunch with my ASOC pals was fun but my first meal of the day was tasteless.
- Got home to get no more than 2 hours of rest b4 embarking for dinner with CIRCLE Camp friends in Fish&Co. No appetite so I just had salmon & salad -_-“


Wednesday

- OCS talk. Briefings on things we already know.
- Preparing for the ‘Fatigue’ cause once I leave home for Mambo, I wasn’t gonna be home again till Thurs afternoon & I ain’t getting no sleep in the next 40 plus hours.
- Phuture/Zouk with ASOC Friends & Seniors. A lot of smu pple were there O.O…
- No pics X(( But Denise getting high was a classic !!!!!XD
- Reminder on why I like & hate clubbing altogether.


CIRCLE Camp Run One's tmr...i really don't know what to expect but i do hope we'd all have fun. Its my third camp & with all the partying going on for the past month, the 'camping spirit' is slowly dying down already. Consolation is this camp is OBS style & my potential camp mates seems like pretty interesting folks...

Tuesday

- Planning for mambo night & meeting with Acct friends for Uni talks
- More Bumming. Ok maybe I’m not such a bum since I help out with housework & grocery shopping

Monday

- Bumming
- Recuperating from ASOC Camp
- Visiting the Chinese Sensei at China Town Club Street to get my ankle ‘fix’-ed Seasons Call @ 12:38 PM

This sucks. I'm stranded at home & i've got stinking chinese medicine bandages cast around my ankle.Old injury. The Sensei said no sports for 2 weeks...Are you kidding!? i can't swim, run, Gym & the next camp is a week away X((

On the lighter side,
ASOC CAmp was a BLAST!!!!



LAdies of ASOC 3G.



Turn up the "Seniors R HOT" O-meter



ADvert for Apple Dippers.



Supper with the Team.



Samurai XuanMing,Ian & i

For more Fantastic Pictures...
http://oasisdreamerzgetoutoftheshell.blogs.friendster.com/photos/asoc_camp_2006g3/ Seasons Call @ 11:59 AM