Friday, June 30, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

This Life...is Precious Junk to me.

My life; its in a mess...blame it on bad karma & scatter brain-me
My Life; its in order...its all pre-planned and well-worked for.
I've got what i wanted,
I've Robbed what was taken away and what was mine ... Am i satisfied?

Home.
Its alright. i love home as always.
MUm&Dad, i'm not drifting away from you. You're not losing me.Don't worry. its not time yet. But if you guys piss me off, you'd kill it.
It takes alot to make me boil.

This.
When even the heart has deceived,where do i go?
I'm gonna have to be the "bad guy" again ...soon. To someone dear. i'm sorry in advance.

That.
You were the one thing i tired to hold onto.
I want you. But i'm not giving in this time.

Self.
I'm losing my soble train of thought. Can't focus.
I laugh, i'd walk, i'd work and go along through my day. But my mind is a blank.
When the lyrics won't come out....i'm suffocated by my obsession with decadence.

Seasons Call @ 10:53 PM

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

>>O.o... i thought i was destructive<<

You Are A Relationship Rescuer!

You don't ruin relationships, if anything you keep them together The key: you respect yourself and your guy. Which goes further than you might think. You simply treat your guy how you would like to be treated... the old golden rule. And in return, he treats you like gold - or at least tries. And how perfect is that

..riiight..

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

You Are 52% Lady

You're part lady, part modern woman. Etiquette is important to you, but you brush aside rules that are outdated or silly.

Seasons Call @ 4:48 PM

{{ Wth is a Dosha?}}

Your Dosha is Pitta

You have a quick mind, a gift for persuasion, and a sharp sense of humor. You have both the drive and people skills to be a very successful leader. Argumentative and a bit stubborn, you have been known to be a little too set in your ways. But while you may be biased toward your own point of view, you are always honest, fair, and ethical. With friends: You are outgoing and open to anyone who might want to talk to you In love: You are picky but passionate To achieve more balance: Be less judgmental of those around you, and take cool walks in the moonlight.

Seasons Call @ 10:31 AM

5 more working days and i quit adult life!! muahaha...its tiring holding THAT kind of lifestyle for 7 months. i don't mean just working...but much more.Anyhows, its about time i enjoyed being a bum a mth b4 uni starts.There's much to look forward to this july.

- akido at westcoast
- Sentosa outing
- weddings!!
- SMU accountancy.bleah =P
- Benny's birthday (marie just told me its on the 30th)
- Ladies Night!
- List goes on.

Friday.

Chilling at CG.
Mas-chan and i found an egg!! Think it was a pigeon's egg. But it was a little cracked and already cold. i was pretty reluctant to leave it be. I even did stupid things like wrap it in his jacket -_-""

Rmb i sprained my left ankle last saturday? At the exact same steps, Debbie klutzy-Me slipped and ALMOST sprained the RIGHT ankle.

Saturday

Had Bible study with Chris and Bei in the late morning. It was great catching up with them and on our friends.Felt like a sloth the whole day so i didn't want to make appointments even though a handful of dudes were like asking me out. Seriously its just me being lazy.Aside from washing up after kitty the whole day, i went for a swim. Was itching to exercise but my ankle has been such a burden.

Calvin, i swear its ridiculous for you to swim for 5 min. Its wierd swimming with you LOL cause you popped out of the sudden.I bet you came down to do more than JUST SWIMMING *suspicious*.

"mugger" mode has been switched on again since i went to research on accounting at JE library. Sourcing for reference books for auditing,finance, accounting and business law suddenly transported me back to college days. Browsed through a whole lot of junk (dry&irrelevant) but got about 5 pretty good books. Now the challenge is to complete them.

Sunday.

Lethargy.

Finally found time to pack my entire wardrobe. i had more clothes than i thought. And more Junk than i thought as well. Mum praised the Lord i was finally doing something with the war zone within my cabinets.

Went house hunting with my parents. If all goes well i'd really like to move into Guilin. Its near Gombak Stadium, 2 min from the MRT and i get such a beautiful view of nature at my window. And it has a bigger and better-maintained GYM plus 5 pools !!! And a Kbox room LOL.

Dined at my cousin's place at Clementi.
Basically catched up with my relatives, watched disney channel and played with this cutie toddler Karl which i've no idea how we're related.

I've been thinking how the entity of divorces, single parents, broken marriages,screwed-up r/ships have been circulating amongst pple i've relations with and how its affecting the children involved. Arrogant/conservative relatives may think i associate with "wierd" people but i don't think so!! Its an ugly world. Its ugly how the more fortunate can be so cold. Its ugly how such misfortune has been repeating itself. It makes me think.

[[ The Irony...]]

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are very passionate and quite temperamental. While you can be moody, you always crave comfort. You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it. For you, falling in love is all about the adventure and uncertainty. You can only fall in love with someone who keeps you guessing.

Seasons Call @ 9:02 AM

Yea alot of bad things have been happening to me. LOL
Bad Karma's not going away.
- got a really bad headache yesterday
Couldn't even stand on the mrt...abd slept through the whole evening
- Sprain ankle's robbing me of gym and running and jumping
- Been reminded of a few forbidden truths from my elders
i know better. i don't wanna hear anymore.

On the brighter side,
i'm singing along with my laptop music. lolx. Seasons Call @ 10:38 PM

You cannot run from what you can’t see;
Cannot wish for what you can’t visualize
Just like we fear what we don’t understand,
I wish they’d leave her be and close one eye…

You’re caught in the middle.
Their disapproval screams.
The truth indeed is complicated.
It burns inside of me again.

Let me be…it’s my life you’re living
I cannot breathe…I’m sorry if I gave you this side of me.

Please don’t judge whom
You don’t know; it irritates
And it saddens the image
That I’ve always had of you.

You’re my lover, my protector
But at times I’d rather be ignored.
You care too much; I know I know;
I’ve heard it a thousand times before.

You cannot throw away what you hold dearly
No matter how screwed-messed up is your baby.
They know better how that’s suppose to feel
So you can’t force her leave him behind … …

You cannot love someone who doesn’t love you
I know them both well, so very well.(A lot better than you do)
While you preach how he was better, did you notice me bled inside?
While you supported the very man who tore my life apart …so yesterday… Seasons Call @ 4:00 PM

=[ **Is this for Real??]=

You Have Your PhD in Men

You understand men almost better than anyone. You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well. Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.

={O.o Dear Dates...}=

Your Style is Sassy

Your date outfits are flirty and fun - and make guys smile Occasionally you'll take a fashion risk, and it will pay off You're up for flashing an inch or two of skin But your general rule is to leave most of your bod to the imagination

={ **This is so damn accurate !!**}=

You Are An Intro-Extrovert!

Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time. Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need varity! Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along.

Seasons Call @ 11:12 AM

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Seasons Call @ 5:08 PM

Broken Triangle

~ inspired by this Jay-chou tune thats playing in my head and making me feel extra depressed.LMAO~~~

i can't think of you when i write
This song for i've gotten it over
And i can't pen this song to him
Cause i'm lost for words today.

i can't tell you how i'm feeling
You'd think i'm weak and vulnerable
I fear you'd play me in your game
All over again.History repeats.

# i can't tell him what i'm feeling
It'll be your rude awakening
I care too much but i don't think
I can love you enough.Its so sad.

# Its sad the ones you want can't
Really be there; you're alone
In this world. I'm guilty
For what i couldn't tell them.

i can't dedicate this song to you
For you never really loved me.
And i can't give this song to him
Cause i doubt my sincerity.

# i have to stop this deception
I'm hanging on myself; Or i'll
Just break two hearts today---
You'd watch as i break his and mine!

i have to hide away again
Cause i don't want to be like you
I don't want to know he's in tears
Like i was before the cycle repeats...

" Trust me.
I'm in a wreakage.
But i know what i'm doing.
Thats why i look Okay. Yea i am." Seasons Call @ 4:23 PM

Sprained my ankle yesterday during my 'run' at CG.It hurt so bad i was laughing when Mas-chan was attending to it. i felt sick the whole day thks to the time of the mth. NOthing could have made monday start out worse than the stupid pain that got worse...while i jumped out of bed -_-" Actually i was in the middle of a dream when my handphone ringtone went off. Mas-chan's morning call. My brain was still half asleep when my body instinctively jump out of bed to reach for the phone.Was still in a semi-dream state when we were talking on the phone...Ankle still in pain and a little swollen.

Smart debbie just had to wear high heels to work on a monday morning with a sprined ankle.

Last weekend was just hit by bad karma...and good ones
My heels got stuck at the lift door last saturday morning
I had no makeup when i left the hse that morning.
I missed parties.One to Butter Factory and another to DXO. No Partying for me till contract ends.

On the lighter side,
i love my pink (mas calls it)"maternity wear-like" top i'm wearing today!!!
i love the SSA performance of dance and live rock bands.
Silent hill rawks !! From the plot to the rolling of the credits. its fantastic. Go watch it !!!
We've officially sold our hse!!! Yuppie!!!
Happy Father's Day!!!
I Have the coolest parents in the world !!! My folks and i went to sing KTV on a saturday nite XD Dad thinks my singing's improved. And thinks i've been going kbox secretly.urr...thats so not true. arh well.... Seasons Call @ 12:51 PM

Your Hair Should Be Red

Passionate, fiery, and sassy. You're a total smart aleck who's got the biggest personality around.

You Are 40% Sociopath

From time to time, you may be a bit troubled and a bit too charming for your own good. It's likely that you're not a sociopath... just quite smart and a bit out of the mainstream!

Seasons Call @ 11:09 AM

=[ A really sick profile and blog ]=
Check out the freakiest profile since the twits...
Girls don't be alarmed..
Guys don't get turned on/off...

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?statpos=bc&uid=22777051
(by courtesy of a ***fren)
And there is something in common about these profiles below...
They wanna meet girls only (specifically stated) no boys XP

Either that or/and they're assets look monsterously unreal !!!

http://www.friendster.com/stegzz123
http://www.friendster.com/29191446
http://www.friendster.com/29488743
http://www.friendster.com/justdome
http://www.friendster.com/10274152
http://www.friendster.com/26817813

Its crazy shiat man. Women from HELL !!!! lol. The blog is just as grotesque as her friendster photos. Enjoy, curious pple.

Today was a mad morning rush to meet Mas-chan at CG to go to work together. Splattered kitten milk over my black shirt while preparing breakfast for my angel. I was like oh Fag!!! Whitemilk against Black top !!! And darlin yaya ain't helping me by giving me those soulful eyes everytime she loses her toy(s) in the corner of some furniture, that i have to retrieve for her.Sigh.Lokking forward to silent hill this evening with Mas-chan. Mummy needs an evening off from kitty. Seasons Call @ 10:28 AM

Seasons Call @ 11:16 PM

*cheap entertainment*

7 Random Facts About Me:
1) Trained Extrovert
2) Pessimist Realist
3) Optimistic motivator
4) Manipulates self
5) There's a story behind Every Sketch i do
6) I'm just EVIL pacakaged in Japanese sweet wrappers
7) Perfectyl flawed

7 Things That Scares Me:
1) Other pple's DEATH
2) Life itself
3) To lose sanity
4) Worms/Roaches that threathen to fly
5) To lose my sight or/and my hands
6) The skeletons in my closet
7) People

7 Random Music At The Moment:
1) Blind - Lifehouse
2) Lucifer's Angel - The Rasmus
3) Autumn Goodbye - Britney S
4) Countdown - HYDE
5) Lyla - Oasis
6) Lost Heaven - L'Arc-en-ciel
7) Ocean Avenue - ???

7 Things I Like The Most:
1)*sings* Eyes,Shoulders,(lips and butt)x2
2) My Irreplaceable Family
3) Friends (You know who you are.)
4) DaoSa Darlin'
5) HYDE n L'Arc-en-ciel Collection
6) Him
7) Life itself/People

7 Things I Say The Most:
1) (something)...ya?
2) fag you lah...
3) *blur look* Huh? HUH!!??
4) wth...wtf...
5) *enthu* HEY !!!!
6) -Sigh-
7) Moving on...

5 People(with a blog) I Want To Do This:
1) Mas-Chan !!!
2) Marie !!!
3) Guanyin !!!(no blog)
4) Nana !!!
5) PAM !!! (no blog)
6) Pinky !!!
7) YOU who is reading this.(notify me ya?)(no blog) Seasons Call @ 1:37 PM

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

Your Makeup Look Is

Punk Glam Eyes You're the perfect mix of rock and roll meets glamour!

Seasons Call @ 3:33 PM

By Courtesy of Mas-Chan.




Drink asahi !!! {sneakpreview}
Checkout.
http://opinionated.multiply.com/photos/album/6

Gomen for this really backdated post.I've been losing my creative juices to blog or sketch or do anything creative.

i feel its a moodswing/hormonal thing.

Thats why i gotta borrow mas-chan's album to tell the story of our successful GATHERING AT SENTOSA ON 10 JUNE.Anyway i really enjoyed company of Marie,Mas,Edward,Daniel,Benny,Clarence,Pam,Elle,Meimei and ZZ.There was...

- touch rugby which i kept forgetting the rules
And enthu-ly touching pple
(i.e. benny,meimei--> fast runners)
- swimming/throwing sand and ice down pple's pants
- salt in my eyes
- submerging in salt water gave us girls smooth silky skin
- posing i our sexxsay bikinis
- consumption of junk food/ drinking beer
- disappearing with Mas to explore the island
leaving the rest of the group to speculate wildly
- making sand boobs n urm...male assets onto Eddie
- Brokeback mountain2: the threesome
- lots of laughter and smiles
- kayaking
- no sun, some rain, all clouds
- no sunburns
- alot of embarrassing and esctatic moments
- lost track of time
- everlasting memories Seasons Call @ 11:53 AM

Even if it were a mistake,
At least i made that choice.

ello pple. I Haven't been blogging for a week yet so much has happened.Yes i am on my office computer cyber loafing again. But thats cause' i'm a fast work ;) Anw here goes the list 0f events.This week felt like a roller coaster.

08/06/06
Thurs
I Swear i couldn't be more thankful today went smoothly. If you'd read events of 07/06/06 you'd know what i mean. Today's working hours went pretty smoothly. i had alot of work to complete but at least i didn't have to rush anything. Had lunch with Mas-chan today before walking him to Fuji Xerox.I'm so scared he'll lose his way or not know which lift to take cause the elevator system is usually pretty complicated in high rise bldgs. On my walk back to office,i could resist a Clearance sale selling really interesting stuff. Shopaholic debbie made a note to drop by after work before heading for evening akido lessons. And yes i blew like $50 on --
1)a pair of sunglasses
2)this supercool bag i think my sis will love
3)Dad's father's day gift (shh!! he musn't know its a clearance sale. But its really good stuff)
4)A purple belt X))))lucky color.

Eugene was nice enough to bring an extra katana and meet up with me earlier b4 akido lesson started to teach me a few moves. i honestly feel like a slow learner in marshal arts sometimes. Thanks Eugene X))) i hope ur sickness goes away so u can enjoy your m'asia trip. T-T i want to go m'asia again..on my own.

Calvin.THanks for the cross pendant. i really appreciate the gesture but there's something in your attitude i'm getting pretty scared of.

07/06/06
Wednesday
People expect 060606 to be a bad omen day.But today seems to be one of the worst days of my life. I had three "ghostly" encounters. One in office. One in chinese Garden. On at the very lift lobby of my home. All three encounters were a complicated series of events. Ask me yourself if you're curious lah. Nonetheless it left chills down my spine. MOst pple i tell thinks i'm kidding. i swear i'm not. I laugh in horro movies but i couldn't laugh this time.

The consolation of today's spitirually and mentally stressful day was meeting up with mas-chan after work to chill out at chinese garden. its beautiful in the day. He was suppose to be in the "deprivation" period but today was really too much to take. i needed someone to revive my energy and calm my senses at the same time.

06/06/06
Tuesday
no nothing out of the ordindary happened.
i can't recall.
i only rmb a few losers boosting how they love this day merely cause of the number.

05/06/06
Monday
I took the day off today to settle a few things
- take care of the hk girls in the morning without needing to rush off.
- complete my uni enrolment.Yes i've finalised with SMU accountancy.
- collect my a level cert from sajc
- hand up some documents/ got awarded some Jacob Ballas Bronze award for acaedamic achievement in SA
- visiting the smu campas/lunch with my parents. the underground of the school looks so much like city link
- Chilled out at Spore river/Sky garden with Mas-chan. it was pretty romantic...and tragic. But nonetheless refreshing. You're damn right so much was on my mind.

04/06/06 - HK home stay
03/06/06 - farmway Pets villa Seasons Call @ 9:30 AM

I'm not your puppet.
Take no credit for my success.
Don't you dare.For you never believed 8 years back.

Extravagenza was a blast today.Sis danced pretty well.She worked it.Woohoo!!! But it was too short lah. couldn't get a picture with her cause she fell sick soon after.Will be taking good care of her now...Edward the big guy with the big band Instrument stood out as usual.

Looking forward to visiting the pet shelter with mas-chan and Marie dearest tmr. Lets hope the uni application passes as painless as possible. i just want to make a decision i won't regret. i shall be affiliated to no one in this case. Seasons Call @ 11:50 PM