Sunday, April 30, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

Quick post while i'm at Gary's with Guan and Gary. Haven't slept more than 2 hours in the last 31 hours...

Yesterday morning i fed kitty b4 rushing off to meet Christian and Beiru for bible study at LJS Lot1.I really look forward to instrument training and youth service with you guys...i wanna learn the guitar=).Bible study ended late so i was an hour late for my afternoon appoinment with Calvin at esplanade for WestSideStory.Poor calvin was shagged out because he had slept for several hours since he got back from camp. Westsidestory was a really fantastic musical.Great dance and vocals.Tried to prevent Calvin from sleeping in the musical by poking him. Silly guy needed entertainment by poking my cold naked feet -_-.We had early dinner/late lunch Jap cuisine at SHAW and played abit of pool near beach road. Silly Clavin likes to take my photo but doesn't like to take his own photo and wierdly finds my serious/angry/blur expression cute. Calvin u're wierd. My weirdest neighbour/jogging buddy.

After spending the evening at gramps at novena, dad gave me a lift to bugis to meet Guan at 1030pm before waiting hell long for a cab. For some reeason the tree me and guan waited under kept dropping beans on us. Thank god it wasn't Bird droppings. Kinda comical though. We didn't reach Liquid room till midnight where we met Vanessa. This Cute Voluptious hot mama lolx. i bet the taxi cabbies we're trying to cheat us. Either they were hiding to earn the midnight charge or went the longer route or both. It didn't take long for us to find Gary and his friends ( they ltr went off to MOS) through the crowd.

Had hell of a good time at Liquid with the music and the crowd.Havent had such a good time in months. But i had to go out for fresh air at the last hour of the dance cause i couldn't take the air inside. Sat along the river. i saw not loneliness but solace. I just took time to chill out on my own and reflect all the drastic changes in my life. i probably formulated most of a poem by just staring at the pitch black canal. Nice to have Eugene(not my akido friend;new guy i danced with) and friends sit around to chat till closed. The crowd that night was seriously bad to us girls. There were this few guys who tried to dance with us and urmm...we weren't interest. So it was fun elbowing and pushing the irritating ones out of the way. So violent O_O.

We got Vanessa a cab, got Gary to flag a cab from MOS to sent me and guan to his place to stayover. Crapped the whole night with Guan and Gary and basically chilled out the whole night/morning till now... Eating on the bed, pillow fight, wrestling, playing with the webcam and teasing little me...about you-know-who

Seasons Call @ 1:58 PM

Friday, April 28, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

While someone lost a love,someone else has gain some lovin' ;)

Check out the sweetest thing.
Little "Dao Sa"(black bean)

Just awaken from her nap.






Is it time to play??









Mum-mumm








With milk comes great silence...


Seasons Call @ 7:57 PM

Words that play with your mind... when you're going on "self-destruct" mode.LMAO.

i just saw you
Beyond the course of time
A room that we once shared
But my memory's a haze
Forgetting what was said

I gently held out my hand
And in that perfect moment
You disappeared I lost you over again

In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness
And somewhere in the caim
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake

An artist without a brush
Can't paint upon the canvas
Without you here there is no colour
A colourless landscape

Shallow Sleep

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up, lost in the ranging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside

You'll never notice
The colour of sin
Just as the storm clouds close in
It's dark

Here in the shadows
I am pursued
Until the ends of the earth
Embraced

The ghost ship wanders far
For there is no guiding star
And this treasure has no meaning anymore

You know completely
The taste of sin
Melting sweet in your mouth
Like chocolate

A moment of pleasure
You are fulfilled
But every dream has its time
To die

The ghost ship wanders far
For there is no guiding star
And this treasure has no meaning anymore

Will this be my fate?

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up, lost in the ranging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside
The Cape of Storms Seasons Call @ 6:33 PM

Too Serious too Soon -Gareth Gates

I wonder where you where
I wonder what your thinking about tonight
I wonder
Maybe your alone
Maybe you’ve been crying just like me
I wonder
I don’t know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much

Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me

It’s been a rainy afternoon
Now I’m staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon

I told you every day
I told you every night in every way
I love you

Maybe you got scared
Maybe I have nothing else to say
But I love you
So baby now my life’s a mess
Cause i’m
Cos I couldn’t love you any less

Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me

It’s been a rainy afternoon
Now I’m staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon

Too soon
It’s not right
It’s not fair
It’s in you baby cuts like a knife
What if you were the love of my life

Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me

We got too serious to soon
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you too love me

It’s been a rainy afternoon
Now I’m staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon Seasons Call @ 5:19 PM

" Euphoria by day would soon Decay. I just didn't expect you'd walk away"

i have a mind of my own, thats why i'm not buying your reason for doing this.
i have pride unbreakable. thats why i'm not going to Beg or Cry.
i have been THERE before, thats why i know its no use fighting it.
i have nothing to lose, thats why i don't fear staying insecure.Still,i'm with you.

On the brighter side, i'm taking my dear kitty to the Vet tmr (thurs) with mum. Taking half day off especially for her. Yesterday i had alot of fun evening jogging with my neighbour Calvin. Feels like two crazy kids trying to test their luck, courage, speed and adrenaline rush by finding "hotspots (places with sightings)" to run. It’s our third time running together and we almost got lost at Taman Jurong (damn I still don’t know where the hell is that) and got me itchy with wet muddy grass when both of us tired to aki-do/ninja-do each other to the ground. Stupid kids LOL. Looking forward to WestSideStory this Saturday man =) Seasons Call @ 9:52 AM

i realised i have this new habit. i'd say something something and end it with an "etc". Totally wierd.Had a very very wierd dream too... trying to break a fight between two guys ( one which i know in real life).Funny thing is i was rudely awaken by my dad's calls for help in the balcony and kitty's loud sharp meowing. Kitty scares my dad all the time. Despite the sternness of Dad, he doesn't know nuts about handling kitty and got the shit scared outta him when kitty escaped.

imagine me in pyjamas, having a stinking mouth and bottle feeding kitty while my vision was still blur from the adrupt awakening. i could really use some sleep. Seriously. Dear Kitty's appetite for milk is increasing everyday. Today she had five feedings. Drained the energy outta me =) bath her and took her for a nature walk before that together with Jinn.

Could finally leave for my date when she had a contented stomach and went to sleep -_-" Jinn and i had lunch and spent our afternoon at the science centre/Omni max theatre. Really wierd place for a date but we had fun fooling around like kids with the games and gadgets. i was beat tired but it was worth it =) off to dinner with my folks.chao Seasons Call @ 7:07 PM

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Sorry havent been updating recently. Busy taking care of kitty. It needs to be bottle fed and cuddled to sleep. its taking up most of my free time but its all worth it. i'm still praying for a more competent owner. Its healthier and more active and playful now Thank God =)
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i'm currently lacking slp. Waking up xtra early for morning feeding and sleeping later for evening feed. *panda eyes*

Watched Eight Below and had lunch at cafe cartel with Beiru and Cheryl...in tampines !! Damn!!!! Lookin' forward to seeing Jinn tmr afternoon. Till next time Seasons Call @ 12:21 AM

i picked up a stray kitten at chinatown yesterday. i couldn't leave it to die. it was in the middle of a construction site and a busy road. At first, when i saw it there were people trying to feed it and paying attention to it so i take it with me. Later when i return to the same spot after my lunch, no one was with the poor crying kitty except for an Ah-Por. She told me she was waiting for her Bus at he opposite side of the road when the little kitten stumbled onto the road. It was too dangerous so she ran over to put it back on the road curb. i had to take in back to office, then home...

Problem is my dad's against keeping the kitten and i have limited time to find a responsible owner or it goes to the SPCA.Please contact me if you:

1) Know anything about keeping kittens
2) Have the capacity to adopt this kitten
3) Know anybody who can do the above

i'm currently trying my best to feed and cuddle it like its mother would but i'm not the best person for the job and cannot keep it skeeping under my shirt (literally) forever. So MSG me if you can help. Seasons Call @ 9:26 AM

[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single
[x] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] being put to sleep (anesthesia)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] pools
[x] failure
[ ] success
[x] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] mice/rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[x] demons or evil
[ ] crossing bridges
[x] death
[x] hell
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[ ] being sexually assaulted
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[x] fear
[ ] being alone
[ ] losing my friends
[x] being blind to things
[ ] being deaf
[x] growing up
[x] being murdered in my sleep

BE HONEST. I WAS
Repost saying: "I fear __ out of 66 things"


D : You have trouble trusting people
E : You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people
B : you are loved by alot of ppl
O : You love foreplay
R : Someone loves you
A : YOUR A HOTTIE
H : You have very good personality and looks

N : Your sex is unforgetable
G : You are very friendly and undestanding


= The Alphabet = :;
A : YOUR A HOTTIE
B : you are loved by alot of ppl
C : you're wild and crazy
D : You have trouble trusting people
E : You are always fun when it comes to meeting
new people
G : You are very friendly and undestanding
F: People totally adore you
H : You have very good personality and looks
I : Love is something you deeply believe in
J : Everyone loves you
K : You like to try new things
L : You always make other people smile when you
smile
M : You are beautiful, and sexy
N : Your sex is unforgetable
O : You love foreplay
P : You are very friendly and understanding
Q : You are a hypocrite
R: Someone loves you
S : People think you are so sexy
T : You are one of the best in bed
U : You are really chill
V : You are not judgemental
W : You are very broad minded
X : You never let people tell you what to do
Y : You make every experience great
Z : You're Super coolL :

Repost this with the title "What ur name
means???" delete the persons name and replace
it with yours... Seasons Call @ 10:48 AM

HAHAhahaaha....i'm literally laughing my toes off right now and desperately trying to catch them back onto my feet...hahaha,here's what happen.Mas and Gary, i hope you read this.

Had a lunch appointment with Gary and Mas, who happened to be around my workplace for Job interviews. Yea we had a great time crapping about anything under the sun. But that's not the joke. There is also this friendly Cleaner uncle in my office building who i just bumped into on my way to the office wash room.

He asked " you had lunch with your husband,is it?" i was stunned for a while. I laughed nervously and clarified they were just my friends; i was like

"No lah Uncle, my buddies lah. I'm only 20 years old.How to get married?" He still insist " Can. Young girls can marry." Speechless.Dots.

Funny thing is i wonder whether he was referring to Mas or Gary cause both of them were dressed in formal collared shirts and black pants like people working in the area. Wait or do i now had TWO HUSBANDS. LMAO. Literally. Oh shit now i gotta look for my toes and my arse -_-

Today is full of errors. Apart from what i just blogged about, i also forgot to bring my handphone to work. It just feels so handicap without my trusty mobile =(( Seasons Call @ 3:59 PM

=) i think this is one of the best weekends yet.

Thank God for Good Friday. Long weekends are so precious to working pple like me who have absolutely no life on weekdays.Jinn came over to play tennis, swim and make Jelly !!! But the court just had to be fully booked and it poured the whole day so we practically had little choice but to stay indoors. Make Jelly was fun. Me screwing up the mixture was more fun. But Playing by the NEW RULE (disclosed) is the most fun part. Right Darling? *evil smile*

Dined at sizzler that evening with my family and did a little shopping at Chase =) And met Carmen at work. Lousy employer of hers won't even let her off on public holiday.Geez...

Saturday was a blast with Mas, Daniel, Edward,Gary, Pam, my sis and i.
I couldn't ask for more guys, with my cousin and my sis enjoyed themselves and with the boys being such fun people... i really really couldn't ask for more for saturday.
My Mei and i got caught in the rain on the way to meeting Pam at 5pm. OG Orchard Point.Heeren. Pictures with the girls. Far East for Dinner with the Guys. Tried to sneak my sis ( whos the only underage pool player in our group) into Mambo at lucky plaza to no avail. Tried to do the same at cineleisure pool area but it was too crowded. Kbox just wasn't money worth. Ended at at Indochine Nude to just chill, Crap and enjoy each other's company for the rest of the night. i love you guys to bits !!!




Introducing Future members of L'fleur De Lune (Edward,Daniel,Mas) and Gary,Mei,Pam and i...at indochine Nude.

Sunday today...is easter sunday. My Akido classmate Eugene invited me to HopeCHurch Easter Service =) pretty refreshing after all the terrible things i've done. Certified Sinner.Geez. I kinda felt caught in the middle.
i'm a believer yet i've not been all Holy...
i don't think i've backslided because i've always been a believer...-_-x
Anyways on the brighter side, Eugene and his cell mates ( i'm so sorry i can't rmb all their names) were very hospitable and we had fun =)

Mas-chan, this is going global on the web *evil smile*. You Gary and Daniel actually spent the night together. WooHoo.Threesome!!!!! So Kewl!!! But i suppose you guess did nothing but Playing poker and having choc chip cookies and milk. How fun =) Seasons Call @ 5:05 PM

Remember Pamela Rogers?? Refresh. Its the elementary school teacher who had sex with her 13 year old student. Apperently she's in trouble again because she violated terms on her probation by communicating with the victim. All was well with her early release from prison due to good behavior and all she had to do was stay away from the victim and the internet for 6 stupid months. But Girlfriend couldn;t resist her "urges" and created a www.myspace.com account and supposedly sent messages to her victim that goes like " you've my hero" and " i could never love another man in the next 3 years",etc. For goodness sake Woman, Grow up!! She's already 28. And for Christ sake she looks like a twit.






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Totally rocks. i'm anti-twit.
i'll be laughing my toes off again. and i'm sure you will too.



i just had the wierdest dream last night. i believe in Deja Vu and premonitions and almost thought my dream was a sign of bad omen. It comes true most of the time. i thought someone i hold dearly died away. Thank goodness i woke up to find it was not a sign of any kind.


On the brighter side, i think the SMU Accountancy interview went pretty well yesterday. With a friendly female lecturer and a cute senior student interviewer, who could fail it right? Went off to town to meet Mas-Chan for some nice seafood noodles at Far East and window shoppin'. Initially we were suppose to eat satay but after me myself getting lost at bencoolen street and my toes screaming for help, we settled for somewhere near and convenient la. We encountered quite a few sights. Firstly, it was an opposition team campaigning outside Far-East with banners like "... Singapore is a Country rule not by Law but the Rule of One Man".Gee...It was not even a proper organised or active campaign la. But Mas thought otherwise la. Secondly, Some guy was rounded up by the police at the basement floor of F.E and he looked terriblely wasted. Its either DRUGs or Alcohol.But in the middle of the DAY!? he must be nuts. He look like he was rolling on the floor knocked out to LalaLand.

CHICAGO before ending the day was definitely the best of wednesday. Its so creative and energetic !!! Loves Marie for posting the lyrics for CHICAGO. the song and dance's still stuck in my puny head ;)

Anw, i've work so Ja. Seasons Call @ 10:15 AM

I KNOW THIS IS PRETTY RETARDED BUT SINCE U'VE UNFORTUNATELY STUMBLED INTO MY HUMBLE ABONDE YOU MUST DO THIS :

copy and Paste

This To Ten People Or you will lose someone Special Tonight
am I:
1) a friend
2) a bestfriend
3) a Bee w/ a itch
4) someone you'd date
5) Hot
6) myy god lets make out
7)so bangable
8)nice
9)retarted
10)Sick yo

TAG A REPLY LA IF U'VE FREAKIN BORED. Seasons Call @ 9:30 AM

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Steve Friedman is the author of The Gentleman’s Guide To Life.
What do Men find Romantic?




debs:Where's Rule #1? i didn't post it cause i felt it was Bullshit.




Romance rule #2: Take charge
Men are generally left with some or most of the burden of organizing outings, so the day you turn the tables on him and arrange the whole deal will be close to his heart. My good friend was really struck when his wife threw him a surprise birthday party on the beach, complete with a bar full of tequila and cable TV so he wouldn’t miss any football games and lose track of his fantasy football league. For one friend of mine, having a weekend-long mountain biking trip planned in Big Sur was a highlight—especially because there’s something about the view from a mountaintop, and you with him, that gets a guy feeling very amorous.

Romance rule #3: Add a humorous twist
Men generally don’t go for sappy love notes, but if they’ve got a sense of humor or something else going for them, recognizing that can be very effective. My friend Dan says he still fondly thinks of the girlfriend “who made her own fortune cookie fortunes — not the cookie, just the fortune — and would hide them throughout my apartment, in my wallet, a book I was reading, bedside stand and even luggage. I don’t know how she did it, but she had them printed in red ink, with those little half-cut holes that come on real fortune cookies. She would come up with great quotes and would print the date next to them. Like, ‘Time spent with you multiplies my happiness exponentially.’”

Romance rule #4: Sex should be involved, almost always
Call us simple-minded brutes, but for men, sex and romance are so inextricably linked. Pretty much any effort you make in the bedroom is automatically romantic. Not just fun, but romantic. He’ll feel closer to you—and you to him as a result, which is really what this is all about. If you’re not sure how to jump-start things, know that lingerie will usually do the trick. What you should wear and how to spring it on him depends largely on the guy. As my friend Jack put it, “If you’re 30 and under, a romantic gift to a guy really is (sad to admit) a woman in some clichéd, too-small, black-and-red lingerie outfit. We don’t need dinner,” he says. “If you’re over 30, a romantic gift can sometimes be a ski weekend (or any other activity-oriented getaway). Lingerie is still part of the equation, but not the trashy kind at this stage.”

Romance rule #5: Prove you’ve got him pegged
One man’s dream of the perfectly romantic day might be drinking 40’s of Budweiser together and going to Yankee Stadium for a baseball game. Another might prefer a day of hiking followed by a trip to the hot springs. For another it is going out for brunch and lazing around in the café, drinking coffee and reading the paper. What’s your guy’s favorite activity? Once you figure it out, give it to him. The more I heard from my friends, the more I realized how different we were. Not just from women, from each other. I have never gone for fancy lingerie—it’s always seemed too calculated, too cheesy. And I prefer to read novels and biographies over fortunes, no matter how sweet the intentions of the fortune-teller. Fantasy football? No thanks. All a woman has to do is to show she understands me and is deeply fond of the guy she understands. Then, I’m all hers. Seasons Call @ 2:23 PM

Had a wonderful day with Jinn yesterday afternoon even though our east coast plan was destroyed by the crazy weather. We ended up watching Infernal Affair and playing XBOX with he's latest game





http://www.got-next.com/reviews_read.php?id=53


i think i'm hooked onto it. i can't forget the Sano and kenshin look alikes there ^_^





Then i got a tummy ache from eating too much junk food...i think.

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Meant to post this afternoon but ended up being ke-poh and following my parents for home hunting. Neh. Actually they wanted more opinions so i just tagged along and didn't blog till now. Earlier in the morning, we met up with mum's side relatives to pray to our ancestors and had lunch together. i really had alot of fun mingling with the cousins again after missing them for several weeks...Played with my darlin neice Vel, talked with Vitaya Gor about his NAFA course which i'm admring so much,talked with my new official Cousin in law Joey Jie about her new job which was interesting since we're both in the insurance industry, alot of crapping with my siblings and Nana, etc.

Anw... i don't understand house agents. PArents and i went t visit 4 apartments in three different areas including a showhouse at Varsity Park. The common thing i observed in ALL of the housing agents. All of them use the " Have i served u b4?" and " i think i've seen you somewhere" trick on my parents. i was laughing with tickled toes inside; behind my stern "house viewing" face. LOL

Secondly...what i'm about to say ain't funny. Agents always refer to the buyer's children. Before, being the eldest in the family i'd always follow my parents to view apartments and give my personal opinion rep my siblings. And agents always go " your daughter Sooo...cute" or " your daughter will love < insert all the marketing phrases and good points of the house>". Now that i'm a grown 19 yr old going on 20... they go " Aiya your daughter going to get married already,smaller apartment(which happens to be the units that couldn't sell) also can..." Dammit !!! -_-" * Huge Sweatdrop*

With the first few agents i politely said i still have my studies as priority. By the third agent, i just ignored him.

Anyhows, i've alot to look forward to this week.
1) Good friday Public Holidays !!! Long wkend !!!
2) MOnday i'm meeting up with Marie, Benny, Clar and new girl Elle
3) Saturday meeting up with Mas,Daniel and new Guy Edward for Kbox... hopefully Guan and/or Pam can make it too...
4) its my honey bunch's last week in camp


Chao pple.


-Listening to Real Version En-ciel Songs- Seasons Call @ 9:59 PM

i just realise i have Helmintophobia. Rather. i realised my fear is called Helmintophobia x-_-x 10 more min and i swear i'll be the firs to dash out of the office.

Chao. Seasons Call @ 5:26 PM

Your Quirk Factor: 45%

You're a pretty quirky person, but you're just normal enough to hide it. Congratulations - you've fooled other people into thinking you're just like them!

Seasons Call @ 5:24 PM

Hais...i've been a really lazy girl lately. Arh well. i'm too tired to blog about KL because my brain isn't workin with me today so maybe you can check out My BEauty "MArie"'s Blog for details or you could enter the link below for KL photos. It really made my day. Thks so much Dearie Marie.


Kualur Lumpur Pictures 2006 (: Click here

The weather's been crazy these few days. Its scorching sun in the day and heavy showers in the evening. i got caught in the rain today so i had to take a long bus ride home. No Umbrella. Why? Cause' i was Lazy..See!!! Asshole of a Rain stopped the moment i reached the busstop. But i was to LAZY to walk to the MRT which would've been faster. Any hows i passed my time reading up on my akido book while takinga long bus ride home. Akido starts again next thurs so i better buck up my skills. i've been out of touch for almost a year cause of the A levels.

Went Jogging with my neighbour Calvin, who i've met in the gym coincidentally often since we were sec4. He's a fast runner but he's stamina sucks. haha..Cal i hope u read this so you'll have an ego flat like a pancake lolx. Right. I'm off to call my Darlin Peachface who's suffering in camp right now.

Chao. Seasons Call @ 10:42 PM

DontWorryPeopleI'mCoolIJustHadn'tWrittenInALongTime=)

Alone by Choice.

Dont Ask why I dont Cry
Dont figure why I don’t laugh
If you want to you could Try
But even I dont have the answers why…

Ive lost my Home
But Im not needy.
Im not running in this rain
Cause Im staying.

Roaring thunder
Wont scare me at all.
Because I need it
To hide those screams away.

I think Im doing fine.
Ive merely lost my fairy tale.
Its no big deal; that because
Even you’d lose it someday…About time…

I think of the distance.
Of how far Ive gone.
Sure, its one lonely road.
But its better this way.

Some call me denial
Some call me heartless
Ive lost and loved again
But is it sin to live on my own?

I dont Cry because theyve gone dry and Im glad I can hide it.
I dont laugh because the last time I did…I sold my soul away…

Fallen.

Once blinded by love
For a being non-existent.
Delusion in fairy tales
Doomed to fall and crumble.
Now Ive awaken from
What seemed like eternal sleep.
Only to find barrenness
And stains In my Body and Soul.

Forbidden fruit.

Keep me burning in the Fire
Of this spill of passion underneath
Dont let this dream die now
Let it live till dawn takes its course in its decay.

I dreamt of eternal darkness
Guided only by the Rays of my soul.
I sore into the darkest skies
With this Broken wings powered by Desire …

You dont know when Im watching you sleep.
You dont know that i stalk that I’ve such a disease.

Revenge.

Swear by God Ill make you life twisted
Broken and destruct by the works of your hands
May you watch yourself spoil in shame
By the humiliating irony that it is your own doing
I dont hate you for youre special
But forgive me for Im bent on venting the faults.
The faults that youve no business in;
The faults by another being too high for my victory.
Yet I think I changed my mind when I saw
Myself in the sweet sacrifice you’ve willing became. Seasons Call @ 2:49 PM

I'm seriously too zombified by the fatigue from the Kl trip to be talking about it in full detail now. oh i;ll just wait for Marie to send me the photos before i start. Btw my asshole of a camera gave up on me b4 i could take my first pic so i was solely depended on Mar-ma's camera.

"debbie-withdrawal symptoms"...DArlin Marie i've never heard of that but i guess i'll love that new disease. lolx. Miss you too and the crazy guys Benny and Clarence =)

with the envy of my lil' sister, i unraveled all my shopping bags while watching desperate hsewives with mum. but we're cool cause i appease her with her request for prawn cracker and jewellery. sigh. girls.

Damn i'm not only addicted to desperate-hsewives but Grey's Anatomy too !!! if i left the TV on nbeyond midnight, i WOULD have caught SCRUBS and got myself addicted to it too.*giggles* i love mondays. its tuesday today so lets hope the next threee workin days pass like breeze.

Ja. Seasons Call @ 9:35 AM