Sunday, February 26, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

"EVERGREEN" never fails to bring emotions wild for the past 4 years.

I lie awake beside the windowsill
Like a flower in a vase
A moment caught in glass.. Mmm

The rays of sunlight come and beckon me..
To a sleepy dreamy haze
A sense of summer days.. aa

If only I could stop the flow of time
Turn the clock to yesterday
Erasing all the pain.. mm

I've only memories of happiness
Such pleasure we have shared
I'd do it all again

This scenery is evergreen
As buds turn into leaves
the colours live and breathe
This scenery is evergreen
Your tears are falling silently

So full of joy you are a child of spring
With a beauty that is pure
An innocence endures.. aa

You flow right through me like a medicine
Bringing quiet to my soul
Without you I'm not whole

This scenery is evergreen
I need you far too much
I long to feel your touch
This scenery is evergreen
You've always been so dear to me

This scenery is evergreen
It sorrows at the sight of seeing you so sad
This scenery is evergreen
I wish that I could dry your tears

The bells have rung the time has come
I cannot find the words to say my last goodbye
This scenery is evergreen
You've always been so dear too me

Seasons Call @ 11:14 AM

Friday, February 24, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

Beauty so raw it burns and bleeds
Like open flesh left to rot in heated sand
But even the suffering have brighten souls
Those who spread their broken wings in adversity

Retreating is this shameful side of me
Together with My Past and Present
But even the lonely desire acceptance
And through that pursuit risk Rejection

“The Harlot” “The Hunted” I bear all
Of which will make you (like the rest) shun me
Like Contagious Plague doomed to spread, then die
But Even the diseased desires deliverance. Flight.

Yet Behind every sin and every stain
Every tinge of weighty oil on these wings,
They long to Rest, Grow, and Protect;
Continue loving even if it meant never being worth your smile again.

Pride, I’m fully aware shall rob my confession
For Fear of being taken for Granted.
But even beyond the most arrogant Queen
Once lied Tears and A King to die for….

Seasons Call @ 9:08 PM

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

1) SUBWAY COOKIES - DOUBLE CHOC, OATMEAL, MAC
2) VAN HOUTEN SEMI SWEET ALMOND CHOCOLATES
3) TRUSTY CLORETS/HAILS- ALL THE STRONG MINT STUFF.

Seasons Call @ 11:14 AM

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

1. Kissing and romance mean as much to us as sex. "There has to be an emotional foundation for sex," says Ed Fertik, a Brooklyn, New York, bachelor. It's not that men don't love unforgettable sex; they do. But in a serious relationship, they want it preceded and followed by romance, kisses, hugs, and a loving touch. Contrary to the notion that men just want to roll over and play dead after intercourse, many guys say they do want to cuddle afterward. Some will even admit they'd like you to read to them or rub lotion on their bodies (and they'll do the same for you, if you ask!).

2. We like you just the way you are; no models required! Hollywood and fashion magazines may make women feel they must have taut tummies and look model-perfect, but guys say they appreciate real women with foibles and imperfections. And personality counts! "Warmth is a much bigger turn-on than cleavage," says Clifford Berkley, a divorcee in Staten Island, New York.

3. We love when you cook us a meal, knit us a scarf, or buy us something we need without our asking. Guys aren't saying that they want women stuck in conventional household roles, just that they enjoy the surprise of a special meal on the table, a homemade gift, or a thoughtful gesture. "I love it when my wife buys me something she knows I need for work," says Douglas Hanau, a New York City newlywed. "Or when she prepares a meal for me that she's never made before."

4. We want to be constantly admired. Guys know they're not perfect, but they want you to tell them they are, or at least highlight frequently the things they do best. If he's great with stuff around the house, ask him to fix something by telling him what a great job he did on the last fix-it task. If he's a gifted writer, ask him to write you love notes, and tell him how much you love his way with words. He wants you to look for his strengths and applaud them -- often! There's also no bigger turn-on, guys say, than a woman who notices the small things he does to be considerate.

5. We appreciate when you contribute financially, especially if you can afford to. Men like to treat women to special things, but they also like to be treated, in return. Share the financial burden of a relationship and know your guy's financial situation; be sensitive to what he can afford. Don't expect a $200 night on the town if that's the sum total of his monthly savings. And don't forget to break out your wallet. "If she earns a good living and is otherwise liberated, I appreciate her helping out," says Fertik. You don't have to split the bill on every night out; just take out your wallet some of the time, men suggest.

6. Being kind to our mothers, siblings, and annoying relatives scores big points with us. Guys so appreciate when women go out of their way to be kind to their families. If there's a relative who's particularly annoying, remember, your man often feels as much frustration or antipathy toward the person as you do. But blood is thicker than water, and a little patience and effort go a long way. Bring along a special treat for a big family meal; send a warm thank-you note after you've visited; or participate in the weekly phone call your guy makes to his mom. Ask him how he prefers you to show your interest.

7. Unusual spots for sex turn us on. Men like to get out of the bedroom. They'd like you to offer up your bathroom, your kitchen, and other unusual spots for a special afternoon of love-making. "There's nothing like sex in the afternoon," says Berkley (especially, he says only half-jokingly, if you'll let him indulge in watching a TV sporting event later). And when it comes to fantasies, they're happy to play along with yours, and they love for you to indulge theirs. Another guy request: They want to talk to you about sex, openly and candidly.

8. We want to be validated all the time. It may sound like psycho-jargon, but men like to talk about their feelings, and they like when you echo those feelings back to them so they feel understood. Guys also love to talk about work, interactions with colleagues -- and sports. Give them their rants. And if they are creative, or concocting an idea a minute for work, they want to lay out their ideas for you to applaud. So applaud! "There's nothing that turns me on more than a girl who asks me to explain the logistics of football calls," says Berkley. "It can be a great bonding moment."

9. We need you to encourage us to take risks, and support us if we fail. If your man has a chance for a promotion at work, he wants your encouragement and support. Build up his confidence by listing all the reasons he should try for the promotion. Also, guys don't want you to change their bad habits; they say they're well-aware of the things they're not so good at. But you can gently offer suggestions for coping or altering annoying habits. "Great is the gal who helps me make fun of my foibles," says Berkley.

10. We can have platonic friendships with females. Don't assume we've got something to hide if we want an hour to play racquetball or four hours to play golf, guys say. Female friends are also a necessary ingredient in many men's social routines -- and work connections make it likely that some of a guy's close friends may be women. If you're concerned that a friendship is turning romantic, talk to him candidly about your worries -- but don't presume foul play.

11. We like women who are assertive, but not aggressive. If you want to try something out in bed, guys are almost always game. Assertiveness is also welcome when planning a weekend getaway, a vacation or even a night out. Let your guy know what you like in a soft-spoken, caring way. Others prefer subtle assertiveness. "Manipulate us in a feminine way," says Berkley, "but don't let us know we're being manipulated." That means don't try stuff that's too strange too soon in a relationship; talk and communicate.

12. We're not as different from you as you think. Books that tout the differences between the sexes may be hot on the best-seller lists, but guys yearn for the same emotional connections that women do -- they just express those needs differently. "Guys who tell you they don't need to be close and bond -- with women or with each other -- are lying," says Berkley. To keep the bond strong, ask your guy often what you can do to make him feel more loved. He'll love you back even stronger.


Seasons Call @ 10:30 AM

We look Good in Green.



Since you liked this smile.



Gettin' Naughty...



Hopelessly seduced.


i gotta make an apology to Guan cuz my cousins couldn't workout and i ended up spending the evening with the Man in Green lol. I owe you dinner for indirectly causing the postpone for the third time sweetie. Seasons Call @ 6:58 PM

Sent home by the company doc.Oh well...

It was Valentine's day yesterday.

Need i say more?
I so agree with my vamp tween that its a commercial holiday. its hearts,balloons,bears and roses doomed to rot all over the place. Its everywhere. In the business district where i work, in shopping malls, even the heartlands ain't spared man!!!!

-watched Casanova
it was so much like Shakespears's Comedy Of Errors
-Jet Li's Fearless
Awesome Marshal Arts Moves
-Pigout at Kuishin Bo Suntec
-Bumped into Ivan and some of Jinn's frens
-Chill out at BrasBasah

The best Valentine's Day Gift is Time spent with you.

What a coincidence. Bern and Jinn's Birthday falls on 25Feb!!! Seasons Call @ 12:05 PM

Officially wasted. Worse drunkenness in my life. Not doing it again >.<

Saturday night seriously felt outta control for me. It was like totally Euphoric and dreamlike, probably cause I was drunk half the time.

Guan got free passes to Zouk for like 8 people so we got Jinn and his friend, Douglas, to join us. Got to know interesting girls like Sharon, Peiling, Cindy, Corina. Luckily I’m still able to rmb them despite hangover. I think it robbed like half of my brain cells. ^ of us met in Orchard first before trying to get a bus, getting a little lost, a little panicky, trying to get a cab and getting on the right bus to Zouk. How we got from the busstop we dropped off to Zouk is another LOST story.

Literally “Lost Sheeps”.

I’m really sorry to have kept those two guys waiting for almost an hour or more due to my poor sense of Direction. Gomenasai.

Zouk got a little boring after a while, so the 8 of us hopped over to Phuture after a couple Jugs of Redbull which really tasted like cough mixture.LOL. Arh well…
Phuture definitely had a greater atmosphere.

Guan and I got adventurous and tried this flaming drink Jinn recommended us. Crap, I keep forgetting the name of that shot. I heard guys have drunk two shots and collapsed on the dance floor. It’s a complicated and stupid story why I drank two. After Guan and I had a shot each, 3 other girls wanted to try. I told them it tasted like milktea with whiskey cause it did. As drinks were one for one, Cindy didn’t have a partner so I decided to go against my better judgement and had my second Shot with her. Scarrry.

Two shots and the next thing I knew, the girls and I were hitting the dance floor. All I remembered was a lot of music, dancing, Doug and Jinn somewhere nearby, seeing a lot of smiles on girlfren’s faces and doing a handful of naughty naughties which I shouldn’t disclosed lest I wanna get whacked by the-person-who-knows. Feels like there was no track of time and just after I remembered Jinn trying to get me to walk in a straight line out of that misty place, I was dead drunk. Collapsed. Fainted.

I saw nothing but blur and seconds-short silhouettes, heard various pple’s voices which I could have identified, felt myself being carried and put down over and over again. And yes, unpleasant puke like all over the place…man it was grotesque. This short paragraph happened in a stretch of two hours (or more).

Was I hyperventilating? Yes I think I was cause I heard Jinn saying something about it while I was in a subconscious state. I’m terriblely sorry to have Him worried sick. Wait I was shivering too. And I doubt it was because of the wee hour wind (probably internal stress) cause it didn’t get any better with Jinn’s Beary Hug. Ok fine, maybe it felt a little better ^_^x.

It sucks to feel totally vulnerable and dependent on others cause you're incapable of caring for yourself. Couldn't even walk with wobbling legs after gaining consiousness and drinking lotsa H2O. i tried to but kept needing support from the guys. X(

Ended up staying over at Doug's place with Jinn since the boys know better and his place was 5 mins away from my Home.No way was i lettng my folks see me this way. So imagine two guys and a girl sharing a BED. Don't get any sick thoughts now.Doug is this nice guy who's a gentleman in everyway except giving up the best part of the Bed -__-".Jinn.Well he was a very huggable teddy bear.

Lookin' foward to many things this wk. Seasons Call @ 9:24 PM

I don't know how to pen down this feeling.
Will probably write a song but its not workin out this wk la cuz i'm too tired.

I'm seeking independence yet i desire to be taken under someone's wings.
I move on, yet i still backtrack at the Past; broken pieces i left on the floor...
I look at people with a smile or alertness, yet there's so much more inside.
I try hard to maintain my dignity by hiding it all, yet i desire to share it all, all the imperfectness,all the pain, all the foolishness with someone who wouldn't judge me.
I Desire acceptance, yet it seems the fake is accepted and the real isn't.Am i accepted???
The One i desire is never there, i never want the One i desire to be there when i lose control...

On the bright side, ive ZoukParty to look forward to. Had lunch with Erwin at Subs; and Pool/Dinner after work. Its wierd seeing the same person twice. Hanging out with you is like being with GorGor Rany =) Seasons Call @ 11:23 PM

TUESDAY

Pray my boss isn't a frequent net surfer or he may stumble by slight chance onto this BLOG and i'll be officially screwed. Lolx. Took half day to join Jinn and his crazy ideas. Dear Jinn suggested we act cute and hit town in our sajc/acjc uniform. Right. And that would certainly keep their tongue waggin'(thk God i didn't see any juniors in town).It was really awkward cuz i was in full sch uni and i wore make up/ boots from work. arh well... We had a so full lunch at Suki/cine that we pratically skipped dinner and spend the whole evening fooling ard town.

Managed to catch NORTH COUNTRY in cinema. It was an awesome movie. One of the best movies since DIARY OF A MAD BLACK WOMAN (a fav.)it was kind of a choice btw FEARLESS and N.C so chose the latter with the toss of a coin. Met a couple of Jinn's friends, had alot of fun at Kino/Borders/Far East etc and basically stayed out till 10plus before heading home to meet my curfew like every "school girl" =))

Hope i'll get some time to read Memoir of a Geisha which i bought from Kino too.

Wednesday

Had lunch with E-ma today and accompanied her to get fish eyes in the Chinatown Wet Mkt.Yikes. Workload in office was overwelming today but i got things sorted and settled pretty fast. i guess its time to work hard after all the play the previous day.

Really. My criticism and Meanness is sometimes my way of showing affection.

Had dinner with Ivan after work at TheEastSide. Steak and Wine was fantastic. Only thing is i had alot of beef the previous day so ya...but it was good nonetheless. The Ambiance was nice but i felt i was surrounded by adults.I'm considered one right??? i dun really know myself.

We made a move as it started to get crowded. Took a drive to Mount Faber, walked around,climbed over the railings to sit and chat on the other side with our shoes in mid air...almost thought it wasn't such a good idea for a guy who just had a minor op.i'm wondering...if it wasn't so serious and you felt u were fit nuff to hangout, how come your not fit nuff to handle pokes and tickle ??

Sure you can take me home. if u were a hot sexy lesbian, sure...anytime.anyone.

Can't wait to party this sat ZOUK =)i've been pretty naughty in the past few weeks.God Knows what saturday'd be like *sniggers* Seasons Call @ 10:16 AM

Zouk Party this SAturday!!! *WoOts* all thks to Guan who got us free entries. Regret to say some close friends can't make it. But its gonna be 7 crazy people anyway.

*mumbles* V-day's comin'.HAtes V-day *chews on my black shirt*

For the past two nights i've been staying up late. Partly because i had outings and needed to unwind when i got home late and partly cause' i've been takin long showers X). Past two nights "My Immortal" 's been playing in my head again and again. That song was a themesong when i lost a Bestfriend's soul many years back.But i think it playing in my head last night and nights before for a different reason...

SOmehow as i hummed it,the tune subconsciously switchs to "Blind" by Lifehouse. wierd. for many reasons... ....

BLIND
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not burry if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know
and part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know
and part of me died when I let you go

After all this while
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know
and part of me died when I let you go

and I loved you more than you'll ever know
and part of me died when I let you go Seasons Call @ 9:59 AM

Behind the black Getup

Do you know the other person
Behind this walking fashion
Statement; behind the perfectionist?
Some judge us as: “ Wannabes.”
Some worship us : “Angels of Death.”
You’d either love us or hate us—

Leather and Black liner
“They’re so awesome” they all say. (Have you no identity?)
Soaked in sweat and sin
I don’t think the fans understand the pain.( No pain no gain.)

Songs for the lost shooting stars
I don’t see why you’d worship us for that.( It s no celebration.)
We’re looking for understanding
Not aimless souls to cheer us on. (You know nothing. Know nothing)

Have you seen us when we’re down
When we were climbing for oxygen
Gasping. Crying. Screaming for external aid?
You think we’re cool and oh so special
But really you don’t know us.
You don’t know what lies behind the curtain—

Head bangin’, All’s Smashin
Past Angst put in a safer place. (May want to stay away)
Stop wasting our time screamin’:
“ People with no clue what’s behind our black Getup !”

Our loved ones and memories
Are leaving us through that door.
We’re staying, entertaining what we left behind.
Off we go to the land where we’d seek and we shall find… Seasons Call @ 9:09 PM

1) Thou shall not buy anymore Boots
2) Thou shall keep away from bringing too many bottoms to the Changing room
( if it doesn't fit, it doesn't fit)
3) Thou shall abstain from buying anymore earings.
4) Thou shall stop buying tops for the month.
5) Thou shall stop Lusting over Men who can take care of themselves
6) Thou shall abstain from Hyde Merchandises before it blows NETS bills
7) Thou shall keep away from trying new recipes (that turn out like shiat and force pple to eat it)
8) Thou shall stop eyeing the sexy dance teacher
9) Thou shall stop gambling excessively (not yet)
10) Thou shall stop playing with fire; literally and figuratively

Yup. ten sins that i've commited so far in the past weeks...
Lust,Greed,Sloth,Envy...arh well


Friday.

Nice end to the working week.

Had a last minute dinner appointment with Julien. Juls is cooking yeah...he's the best/fastest chef i know =) grows his own basil leaves, french cusine, man it was fantastic. Max ( Jul's friend) joined us ltr.Boy he was one guy with alot of morbid humour. i like it ^_^

Saturday

Fantastic time with Bei and Yx.Missed Cherie and Evon.i've not seen em or months =)

Memoir of a Geisha didn't have good movie timing so we watched "Fun w Dick N Jane" Instead. It was humourous but too much corporate jokes for my liking. i guess the only good point is the extremity of the story and Jim Carrey Himself.

It was Great catching up with them though. i was so blur and carried awa with talkin at lunch that i took a bit of Bei's HotDog.Gawd it was embarrassing. Good to hear that Yx is interested in knowing more about God. i guess Bei could help her because unlike them, i think i'm backsliding on my Faith.And i don't know how to turn back.

SAturday was rushy.Apart from rushing to meet the girls immediately after morning swim lessons,we had to rush the outing as Yx had work at 4plus.Shucks.So basically i got home pretty early at 5, met up with my dad's poly students who came over for new year visiting, did some entertaining for the guest and head off for the usual dinner at Gramp's place.Dad's students were a noisy bunch of guys. i couldn't help but comment to Dad, "i bet none of them have been through the Army yet." Yea, not my type.

Sunday

Dance class.it gets more tense every week.
Guan!!!! When are you well enough so we can sign up for salsa??

Currently workin on two piece of lyrics, " Starless" and "Behind the black geup" and getting my personal MUG done at GRAFFITTI.
Here's the design:

Seasons Call @ 6:17 PM

You Are A Blueberry Martini

You are a eclectic drink - liking to change drinks and venues often. You are usually the first of your friends to find a cool new dive bar or cocktail. You should never: Drink mystery drinks strangers hand you. Unless you want to wind up in foreign country. Your ideal party: Is mobile, hopping from party to party. Your drinking soulmates: Those with an Orange Martini personality. Your drinking rivals: Those with a Chocolate Martini personality.

Seasons Call @ 5:26 PM

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Seasons Call @ 2:02 PM

back from lunch.

Business is pretty slow today cuz i suppose most pple are still taking leave in other offices and in mine.oH WELL...

Lunched alone today cuz most of my colleagues were on leave. Actually i wished i took leave too cuz my throat is beginning to feel heavy. Post-CNY syndrome and overeating results i suppose.

I had a really good lunch at subway today.Tried the new outlet at Republic plaza. Not Bad. Shared a table with two stangers and ate Teriyaki subs while reading JUICE mag. Took a walk ard Clifford center. Guan's totally gonna flip when she hears i found LAST QUARTER (Hyde sama's movie) at the PK outlet there. Tried to search for Yixin's prezzie there but its sold out. Made a reservation. Hope the lady will get back to me before this sat as i'll be meeting the SA SistaHoOd then.

i REALLY love the freedom of having your own personal time once in a while. it seems i have more things to blog about when i lunch alone. i guess its because i enjoy the idea of exploring new places on my own. =)

Btw i found some art/fashion shops and night pubs along club street while runnin an errand to Liberty Hse earlier today. The colourful and untidy setting of those shop houses just brings some form of nostalgia to me. i love it. Seasons Call @ 1:42 PM

Your Makeup Look Is

Dramatic Eyes with Naked Lips You rock an edgy, modern look with feminine grace

Seasons Call @ 9:55 AM

Your Nail Polish Color is Purple

How you're unique: You are artistic and expressive Why your style rocks: You pay special attention to color and fabrics What this color says about you: "I'm creative and know how to take care of myself"

surething. my brother loves purple. Really.And thats a fact. Seasons Call @ 9:55 AM

Guys Like That You're Charming

You're the girl most guys can't get out of their heads Even if they met you on a bad hair day :-) You just seem to "click" with everyone you meet So even if a guy forgets about you for a second... his friends haven't!

i'm bored in office cuz there's no work comin' in. Me? CHarming?? Hoho. thats y i love blogthings.com. its so perfectly inaccurate all the time. Seasons Call @ 9:51 AM