Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

debbie's tested and proven theory.

Three unconventional ways to lose weight:

1) Brush your teeth early so you won't eat supper

2) Eat only half your portion and give the rest to your "eat-everything" brother. So you won't feel guilty leaving food on your plate. Don't have a brother? just don't eat rice if there's no dishes left.

3) Do alot of Exercise in Bed. Boy it works >_<. ( for more details, ask me how. lol)

Seasons Call @ 9:40 PM

Monday, January 30, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

i'm really shagged out frm all the visitings for i'll just touch and go on a few memorable moments.

Day one:

- got to see Kathleen, a distant relative who's my age and we may be going to Uni in the same year. Hmm...we should hang out some time.

-BlackJack. Woohoo.CNY is the only time you can drink, gamble, overeat and do all other vices w/o anyone saying anything abt it.lolx

-Best time was in the evening at nana's place where i got meet all my fav cousins from mum's side. *fumes* Vitaya GorGor wont stop teasing me abt the Emceeing. I basically had all fun laughing, talking crap and enjoying the company of my dear relatives.

- my cousins are beginning to think my newyear outfit is satanic.Its not!!! its just Gothic pictures and prints from the Renaissance Period.Gee...But i'm glad they lyk it nonetheless...Guess cause its kinda arty.

Day Two:

- Morning visiting was at a Grandaunt's place where i got to meet my Cousins again. Yea so there was more madness, mischief and monkeying amongst each other's company.

- had lunch with the crazy bunch at West Coast Macs cause all the restaurants were either closed for CNY or fully booked. Oh well nice to indulge in the informality and Junk Food ONce In a while.

- Got a really bad headache from playing in the sun and sand after lunch with m cousins. Nice. i was in a skirt and boots and we played on sand. How nice...Duh it was messy*yikes* but i loved the crazy things we did on the playgound site *sniggers*

-Drove off to meet an aunt on dad's side and all the other pple in the extended paternal family. Nice Pasta for dinner; apple crumble for desert ; lazing around; being a play thing to my dear little cousin angie; gambling somemore; etc.

i'm really tired and i dunno what else to write so i guess i'll sign out.

Pls note that ive changed my number w effect from today so if u hadnt receive my msg notifying on the new number pls tag me/email me/anything...chao

Seasons Call @ 10:28 PM

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

STRANGER

( a song to share a secret.A plesurable secret the vulgarr crowd may never understand. " HArlots and the Hunted have their pleasures to give, the vulgar crowd will never understand." )


Keep your whispers softly hidden
From the Speaker. From the World.
Singing silence. Weeping Willows.
We lay hidden from the World.

Keep the seconds thoughts with the night wind.
There is no turning back.
In the wind chime’s melody I realized how far I’ve gone.
Even if I’d cry in the night,
I’m in a place no one’s near. I just wonder since you lived here
If you’ve ever wept here alone.

Lovely stranger. Unforseen danger.
I’ve walked in right to your realm.
Your Sacrifice. My Surrender.
We both leave the pains behind.

Forceful persuasion into submission.
But I think otherwise. Warmth
And Caresses brings back memories
Of the Man whose lost in time.

Dancing in a crimson daze. I’m lost in his world.
My Doom-ness. My salvation.
Oh will you please carry me away from this land.
Please keep my blind sweet stranger.
I’ve grown tired of the hurt from the commoners
Save me tonight Oh dark stranger….

Ecstatic Kisses that possess no love.
Violent Caresses that brings no Joy.
Yet Burning Pleasures from that beautiful strangers. I see sentiments same as mine.
A One night lover that ain’t eternal
Amidst the world of cynical judges.
I know they will never understand the silent symphony we played together. Far away, against the World….

Seasons Call @ 9:44 PM

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

okie Nana made me say this. She didn't chicken out. She gave me the oppotunity of a lifetime. Fantastic right !!??

Saw kitty on my way to work. Was in a rush so i had to hold breakfast and munch in one hand and handle my bag in the other.Gave my half-eaten breakfast to kitty.She seems to like it. Black pepper chicken pie.Oh well

Seasons Call @ 11:59 AM

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

Everyone thinks i was the luckiest girl in the function room to get a full view of the lovin' couple xchanging vows and kissing. NOT.

I got the place beyond the front seat only because dear nana chickened out on the M.C. Job and i was made to do emceeing 5 min before the actual ceremony. Nerve wreaking. i "like" that feeling cuz it makes youfeel so alive. yea...only a little note book with the script written in pink to help me. Gosh i've never seen that script till dear nana came to me.T_T*wants to cry* but most went well i guess.

Cutiee Val was there.Seated at a corner seat on daddy's lap, she was giving me small waves and cheeky smile while i as up there goofing ard.i gotta say her cute lil face gave me the encouragement to just BURST my speech in front of the audience.

Dinner was fantastic with malay and chinese cuisine.And Val was getting heavy.I barely carried her around for few minutes and my arms were starting to ache. But can i put her down with all her pointing at everything that she fancies and talking to any stranger that comes by. little vain pot was posing for every BIG SMALL Hp camera pointing at her.

Pam honey. i know you feel a little confuse right now but trust me its gonna be alright and its never too late to be independent.love you.

Joey, the bride looked like royalty man. Greek Princess getup.i wish you and my dear cousin decha (who i rmb did take my toys when we were little) all the best. Out.

Seasons Call @ 7:36 AM

Monday, January 23, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

i'm still figuring out how to upload all the Cute vel photos i have in my New Phone. After much hunting and struggle with my old phone, i've finally got a new phone which has all the functions the old one lacks.

Nokia 6111.


Celebrated my Grandma and Ema's birthday yesterday at this AMK seafood eatery. The huge Crabs were fantastic =) Haven't seen GorGor Ryan for so long till yesterday But i did see Vel again. She's still the same little pulp posing for every camera she sees.

Off to the gym before heading to cck for GorGor Decha's engagement with Lineng JieJie. i just love weddings...

Seasons Call @ 2:51 PM

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

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TGIW (thank God its Weekend)

Indeed i did get the best of both worlds yesterday(fri): Jinn and Velouria

Ema invited my friend, whom i originally had an appointment with ono friday evening, and GorGor Rany (vel's dad) over for dinner so that Vel could have my company. Of course, Jinn was willing to accomodate and was such a wonderful play mate to my niece Vel.
For a night, jinn and i became playthings or GIANT TEDDY BEARS to the sweet little 2 yr old in addition to all her toys and her plastic in-built playground.

it'd replay the entire night if i could.Again and Again.

Jinn and i had to leave at abt 8pm to hang out on our own.It was hard with Vel making a fuss that her playmates are leaving.A big baby fuss.

We Went to find kitty and chat till late at my Condo playground(away from the humid weather).A memorable Friday =) Seasons Call @ 1:03 PM

yesh debbie is strong and kickin'.
Long hours of sleep and i was lively as ever.

Yesterday, mour was so cheery i could've given free hugs and kisses to any stranger on the street.lol. i was so glad to be well again. Furthermore, on the way to the gym yesterday evening i saw kitty(seems like she's waiting for someone).Cute Kitty that used my long office skirt last week as a shelter from the rain*gigggles*
Kitty still remembers me. While i decided to run upstairs to get some cat food kitty run along and folowed me all the way to the 11 floor !!!Brave kitty wasnt afraid of the lift. My Bro was delighted to open the door to find our little friend at the 11th floor lift lobby. Naughty kitty run into our home when my bro open the door.We Screamed and had to use the cat food to lear it out of our home. Thank God our parents weren't home or i would've been in deep shit. Mummy came home to find my bro and i watching kitty crunch at Friskies (salmon & tuna by mum) outside our door. Mummy was so excited she pushed the main door open and suggested giving kitty one of the fishes from our dinner.But mummy didn't know kitty loved our home so of course she screamed too when kitty ran into our home AGAIN. Kitty loved the fish mummy gave.
It ate so neatly.Even the fish head and bones were nowhere to be found.

Ya i know i sound a five year old writing a story. but thats what kitty brings to my heart.lol who wants to be my kitty.

Gym workout yesterday did me alot of good.err...except for two smelly Young guys in the gym. the gym is MINE ALLLL MINE!!!!

Btw kitty was found waiting/staring at me under the swimming pool benchs while i was at the gym around 8pm.Kitty!!! *hugs**Can't wait to see kitty again ltr on my way home.


Oh and i'm looking forward to finding kitty together with Jinn on fri evening.Hope she shows up =) Seasons Call @ 1:40 PM

Wtih fod poisoning from last night and lack of sleep i've been officially transformed into a walking corpse working in the office. *clings on to cuddly soft toys* Seasons Call @ 12:37 PM

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

Seasons Call @ 10:43 PM

You Were a Parrot

You are a master of language, and you use your wit to mock and tease others. But you are also wise, and you often think carefully before you speak.

Seasons Call @ 10:31 PM

Had a break away from the normal saturday night family routine;
Hanged out with Jinn at esplanade area and had really Good Chocolate desserts(forgot the dish name) at Chocolate Bar. i must bring girlfriends out to that place sometime It was a short night cuz we only met at about 850pm and dear debbie has a darn curfew at midnight. But it was memorable.

Dear teddy, pls don't gt too obsess with those muscles. And thanks for walking me home the lonely Quiet Road.=)

gotta turn i early; dance class tommorrow.Out. Seasons Call @ 12:52 AM

OOh.Unlucky day's today.

haha..other than the workplace i'd say today went pretty well.
With my darling Val on my mind it just makes up for everything that went difficult today. Hyper/drooler/screamer/overly friendly/ loudspoken/ greedy (when it comes to food) little Val just made my day. i'm sure they made ema n echong's day too =)
Four of us dined at Jack's Place plus Really Good Oysters and Salad.


can you resist that little cutiee? Seasons Call @ 12:09 PM

Seasons Call @ 12:23 AM

HAPPYBIRTHDAYMARIE!!!!

The girls had taken keave while i had to work, so could only meet up with them
after work at 6pm ard town =)
Dinner at this really cosy Jap restaurant, did a little shopping for my new year clothes (part2),took alot of crazy pictures...*grins* you girls make my day.

Marie, hope you enjoyed the short outing =)

*Sobs* the forbidden shop at FarEast Sells M.C.R shirts and shirts with angel wings
But its so bloody expensive .T-T
i'll wait till my endofthemth pay and pamper myself. Seasons Call @ 4:58 PM

Seasons Call @ 4:22 PM

Seasons Call @ 4:31 AM

Empty Shells.

A mind without a soul, a smile without the joy,
A body without the feel, I see the wound.
But I don’t feel the pain.
The tears without the misery, a cry without knowing why,
Why do I appear a broken soul but can’t feel
Like one. A human?

This isn’t the story of the average broken person.
It scares me to know I don’t feel guilty.
Yet, I seem to have forgotten what was Fear.
It scares me to know I’m not Needy.

Maybe I’ve lost heart; the human heart
To sympathize with myself or anyone
Maybe I’ve just grown numb from it all
Such that inflicted and festering wounds don’t hurt no more?

Falling back in love when I know I’ll come back again
Forgiving even though I know I’ll face it again
I came back to face the mistakes we made
Times too many. Will you ever learn?

How many times does it take for you to see the light?
How many hearts will you break before you come true to your word?
How many chances does it take to waste someone away?
You’re sorry. For the problem this song caused you. Not for me.

I live only for tomorrow. I live for everything except
The abandon creature I’ve made out of myself.
Tell me what makes a man? Is it the one that feels?
Or perhaps the enduring animal that surrenders to fate.

That kiss that has turned cold with a lifeless stare
That hold that no longer inspires warm from this corrupted world.
That detachment, that isolation, that inhumanity…
Am I losing sanity or humanity?

empty shells was written with a stream of consciousness. so it doesn't make much sense. i guess i could use this to sympathize with the confused person i once was. While this song is pretty long, i think it lacks depth. Its insufficient to comprehand the completeness of its complex origin Seasons Call @ 12:46 PM

Final Hour


The more I discover
The love black as sin,
The more I feel you should run for cover
From one as destructive him who’d make you suffer

Ignorant we may be,
As innocent as thee
Your imbalanced fusion
Eventually will end in bitter confusion

For he with his destructive ways
Your life and pride, out thou about to pay
For he will lead you astray,
Till too late when you realize one day

If I should ever realize
My love for him was true,
Where would I keep you in my eyes;
You’re deaf to the cruel truth.

Doomed to end, we are.
But how could I have foreseen.
Would thou leave without notice?
Leave without your last kisses…

For I am in dilemma,
Yes my life and dignity’s about to stray.
Couldn’t you stay any longer?
So at least I’ve a reason to exist till final days

But where is my reason;
You’ve given you to someone else
Will you leave this season?
And leave us entrapped in this hour?

Written sometime in june2005. it was inspired by a conversation a friend and i had early in 2004. Seasons Call @ 12:21 PM

Four words(precious junk)

What’s that your saying?
The disbelief in my ears
Has made me deaf to your screams
Did you have to uncover my fears?

Why hug me this way?
Why kiss me that way?
Is such deception so satisfying?
Just what sort of empowerment is this when he says...

He said, “ I don’t love you anymore.”
Its only four words I heard. That’s enough.
Enough to bring me down. Collapse. Fall
Fall like Lucy, Angel of Once-Grace.

I passed those days missing a false love.
I’ve watched it go by, get broken and go by. Gone by.

Now, I find every blessing
I’ve tried seeking in everything.
“Us” is merely disappearing and crumbling
Oh I wish I was the one who disappeared instead.

Should I thank God for this cruelty
Or should I regress and wish to
Be buried forever in deception?
Did you ever treat me as a human?

He said, “ I don’t love you anymore.”
I was deaf to the last word. How much
Can a broken heart take again and again.
I’ve enough of singing love songs in tears.

Four words was all it took
To destroy the hopes and dreams.
The flawed personality and person
Was truly worth it with out those four words.

Lets these tears wash away
Every memory. Every bittersweet
Moment that merely voices down
To the lifestory of Precious Junk.

(part one...under construction) Seasons Call @ 8:59 PM

Looks like I’m lunching alone today cause my dear lady colleagues have got the flu from the really bad weather.
Sadly.
But look on the bright side…this means I can venture out to raffles place and shop for some presents for My Bro and Marie (their birthdays both land in this week). I tend to work faster alone at time. Yup.

Oh crap pray to God Marie doesn’t read this. She’d know where I may buy her present from o_O.
I’m meeting her and girlfriend tomorrow after work for a short get-together/ Celeb Marie’s Birthday/ cure Gy from her stressful New Job. Whoops.

Yuppie. Going all out for Chocolates next week with Jinn ( pictures him sniffing in camp right now ). Seasons Call @ 10:39 AM

Kei Ian i'm a fan !!!
i love the lyrics.
Kei is my friend who writes great songs and sings his own songs and makes his own music lol. Karen is such a cutie--the way we debate about Kei Ian music.
Yes..."kei Ian" is the registerd name i added in my media player lolx. Like it, Ian??


Its raining raining raining....

Still hunting for my new Phone.

Still having Dreams with strong msgs. Argh.And insomnia. Seasons Call @ 10:28 PM

Terrible nightmare. i thought it was over. its coming back again.Tricky thing is the person in trouble will never appear in it... Seasons Call @ 11:35 PM

"There was once a little bear who loved to sketch.she’d sketch all day and night till she forgot when to sleep.Then one day—due to the lack of sleep and overdose of endorphins, lil bear lost her master piece of a sketch she spent sketching for nights. She looke up and down and here and there and still couldn’t find it.Finally she gave up finding and sat there sobbing.then came teddy bear.”why are you crying,little bear?” he said. “ I lost my masterpiece” she replied, “its this sketch I’ve been working on for nights.” She said through sobs. “ Oh you mean this?” and teddy bear took out the missin sketch he had been holding….Oh I was just admiring it the whole night cause it looked so pretty” and with that he passed the piece of art to lil bear & lil bear was happy again. Lil bear had gotten her painting back and was finally calm again only to realize how tired she was…And since teddy was such a cuddly thing, she puts her arms around teddy and they both drifted off quietly into wonderland together. THE END…. OMG I can’t believe I just wasted 7 smses on this"-Jinn

Sorry Jinn.Your bed time story was flooding my mail box so i gotta delete it.
Jinn's the answer to my insomnnia. lolx. Seasons Call @ 1:41 PM

Ben i dun give a flying fuck what you think. i have a life and it doesn't need your judgement. Since i keep out of your turf, you stay out of mine. i know you're reading this. Move on already ! Seasons Call @ 7:48 PM

morning. its so common seeing me rush to the MRT in the morning while chewing my breakfast in my hands. i had omelette sandwich today. it was great eccentric fun walking and peeling bread crumbs for the mynahs along the way =)

afternoon. Had a really healthy and tasty lunch with my colleagues but the drinks at that place is shiat diluted.
yikes. no wonder the uncle was so cheeky...to make up for the poor quality i guess.

evening. ran from my workplace (after posting letters) to subway to get my tasty Cookies and RAAANNN to my aunts workplace to meet my uncle in his car. Fed him cookies while waiting for my aunt after work =P


Going off to visit gramps later so i better get off. the last time we were suppose to visit her, i forfeited it and went picnicing in the rain w my friend Ivan. Felt so bad; i better not miss out tonight's visit. Out.

silly Jinn. u're making it hard to go offline. Bondage still means entrapment silly. Seasons Call @ 7:25 PM

"Ghosts"-Robbie

Here I stand victorious
The only man who made you come
When you cried, you cried for us
And when we died, you died alone
Gravity's calling
Don't go home
Where are we

Did what I could
For one of us
I always thought it was for you
And when I lied
Oh I lied for us
Because you never heard the truth
I am lying alone tonight
Don't go home
Where are we

If we are ghosts
(A long long time ago)
It looks like we could have made it baby
We are ghosts
(A long long time)
Me and you
We are ghosts
(A long long time ago)
We could have made it
We are ghosts
(A long long time)
Me and you
(Ago)

Look at the time its taken me
To get away from what was said
I'll never leave
I'll always love
You know that all those words are dead
Buried in yours tonight
Move aside
I'm taking you home

On the radio
She was that summer song
Packing them in
Making them dance
A law of her own
Taking the time to sing it
I don't need you
But I'm lost
I'm lost without you tonight
Have you no heart
Where are we
(Everybody sing it)

Ghosts
We love like ghosts
We are ghosts
They're taking down our satellite
We are ghosts
Josephine
I'll follow your star tonight
We are ghosts
If not tonight
Then when will she say
(Everybody sing it)
We're not ghosts Seasons Call @ 9:37 PM

i watched my dearest aunt and uncle's cat put down today.
The poor kitty cat that always refused to let anyone carry him but my aunt and uncle,the one which always runs to the bathroom and mews unhappily when i get over friendly....
it saddens me to watch my aunt and uncle's broken hearts, to watch an animal suffer, to see death as a show of love...

Tears from a stranger or a friend.
Whatever i am, i wish i was never there so my aunt and uncle may have their own time. i don't regret being there and stroking the numbed body when everyone else left the room. Seasons Call @ 9:10 PM

I'm stuck in the office with the pple out on leave/appointments and the rain pouring outside. The introvert in me is loving every bit of the freedom and silence here=)
*tears hair* Work won't gimme a break !!! *watches the assignments pile up*

Jinn i'm gonna b xtra nice to you so that i can unstitch your teddy threads/buttons and steal all the HUgs u have and all the cookies you bake this wk.muahaha.Jk Jk.*hides away*

---------------Debbie the teddy killer.Out---------------------- Seasons Call @ 1:21 PM

i can be the object of you power...
i can offer you immense pleasure...
i can cause you tremendous pain...


If i offered myself as sweet sacrifice to my infactuation...
i know he shall

Give me power
Satisfy my lust
Remind me that history repeats itself.

------------------L'Angel Of Death has spoken-------------------

Still trying to finish my sketch of my dream two nights ago ^_*
Playing " make me pure" over and over again till my sister's complaining X) Seasons Call @ 8:36 PM

i swear i'm wearing a hat wherever i go: be it the gym, work or to the mini mart downstairs =( Seasons Call @ 3:27 PM

basically i spend all day,all of the first day of 2006 sleeping,sleeping and sleeping more.

*blushes* last night i had the most wonderful dream in a long while.

His face appeared so vivid amongst the misty scene...
She longed for protection...
They say the big birds must protect the small...
In protecting others,she was neither mighty, nor was she small; fit to be under the protection of the big...
Yet in the strength of his hawk blue eyes,she saw weakness.
She saw trembling and inabilty on his part.
A man so strong crumbles in his stand still in front of her.
In nervousness and hurry to hide away, he abandoned all pride and fears; drewing her nearer for a kiss to voice his uneasy silence.
I love you, he whispered (more like stuttered)
Her heart in joy yet disbelief.
Can a hard man like him truly love?
Was there love?
I ran and ran...far far away as my legs could take her.
I was her mind and she was my heart.
I cannot rmb how long i ran.
Until i notice nightfall had come.Truly it was late.
Perhaps, late at night. But not too late to unlock the heart of the whom i thought was a stern and hardy man which i respected only as a senior in our Sect.
Perhaps we were more than that...

She turned back.She had to set things right.

He waited at the meeting place. A place where the crowd mingered.He sees all but they cannot touch the pair about to meet. In anxiety yet fearing possible disappointment,he wondered what made her so special in his eyes.

I couldn't hide behind pillars anymore
I came out to face my fears, my pleasure,my infactuation...



Currently trying to sketch what i saw...what i felt... Seasons Call @ 10:08 PM