Saturday, December 31, 2005

Guilty of Sin but SAved by Grace = Psalm 32:5

Everyone probably has many many wishes and resolutions for the new year...i have...damn i don't have enough fingers n toes to count them all...

Top three resolution:

1.Maintain/improve Gym planning/healthy lifestyle

2.Continue to be an improtant part of my loved one's lives, be it family or friends

3. MOst importantly,

To love like i've never been hurt
To Work like i don't need the money
To Dance like No one's watching. Seasons Call @ 11:34 PM

COLLIDE-HOWDIE DAY
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide Seasons Call @ 1:48 PM

Stress at work...urgh its everywhere. Its not only in school that pple leave it to the last min to do assignments. Similarly in the working world pple rush to complete assignments before new year.

Met MArie Dearie for dinner and shopped at Bugis Street (gy's influence)for earings nad wallets. I know i just got my pay but i better spend carefully cuz my parents are cutting my allowance !!!! Argh *begs* pls...NNOOOoo...!!!

Bumped into Paternal Grandparents at Bugis. =) its living proof i wasn't lying. Mum tot i was dating some guy.I got into a big morning argument with her you see.Hais...its not my fault they can't take the Rude Awakening.I love them.Really. i just gets a lil' irritating at times...like ant bites.

lolx. Mum needed loose notes that adds up to fifty bucks. It has been concluded that in economic terms of HOT money, my sister is richer than me today. My liquid cash couldn't even add up to ten bucks!!!

Oh and i bumped into Xueshan yesterday afterwork!!! Real Glad to see her. Seasons Call @ 11:20 PM

pardon the crap cause i'm tuck in office working and eating Subs for Lunch.
i gotta get down to accounting soon cause i'm using my nets so often nowadays. I've been shopping more than usual too.urh well.

X'mas gifts:
1. Expensive Jap perfume (forget the brand name) by mum
2. Candy cane and this blue santarina hat by Guan
3. Handie Mirror
4. white spagetti shirt
5. ALOT of chocolate
6. An enormous chocolate icecream logcake

Things for X'mas i wished for but hasn't come YET:
1. a new handphone (wait till payday =((
2. a more discipline workout routine
3. slimmer thighs,bum,waist,urgh everywhere...
4. most importantly,a peace of mind.

Things i brought home from Malacca:
1.a pair of ankle length brown boots (scared my parents half to death when i intitially wanted a black pointed knee high one)

2. A NBC lighter
3. cute paper clips
4.Durian Kaya anyone?
5.lots of DVDs (brotherhood,narnia,etc)
6. ultra cool gothic shirt with vamp, cat, moon, haunted hse prints on it)
i swear its gonna be my new year outfit
7. another green sleeveless shirt that is so rocker-like
8. a different world.

Currently thinking of...
*blushs*
*runs and hides* Seasons Call @ 1:01 PM

your Casanova is the Outlaw

When you put your mind to something, there's no stopping you, and your Casanova had better possess the same passionate spirit. You like to shake things up and live life to its fullest. The guy lucky enough to captivate you better have his seatbelt fastened.

Adventurous and creative, you tend to follow your heart and don't worry too much about what other people think. There's an element of adventure to most things you do, and you're not going to settle for a second-rate wannabe. Sound wild? You are!

The man of your dreams isn’t always who you think he’ll be. Seasons Call @ 12:44 PM

http://oasisdreamerzgetoutoftheshell.blogs.friendster.com/photos/xmas_and_malacca.html

yes yes the short malacca trip sure was enjoyable (replying the fifth sms asking abt malacca). Though the place is pretty overated,the family outing was pretty fun. i'm currently on MC for a big bad flu. Its unlikely i'll be sick enough to miss another day of work so i better take my medication and turn in soon. Check out the malacca photos (above link). Seasons Call @ 11:11 PM

cya pple. i'm off to malacca. Seasons Call @ 12:33 AM

Friday was wonderful. i got to leave work at 4pm cuz business was pretty slow and i spent an entire friday evening with Val dearie (my neice) and my fav Ema n Echong.
Val sweetie was truly a bundle of joy. She wouldn't stop talking and dancing and playing around. She's the most beautiful and intellegent 2 year old i know. *hugs*

Can't pronounce "debbie" yet. She can still call me "Aurntee" but thinks debbie is pronounced as "baby"...awe...lovely Val filled my entire night =)
She's so adorable. She's a cute toddler who never cries at anything and comments on every thing she sees...not a bratty crybaby which i'll gladly scare.

After a filling dinner at Kyushu, echong drove us 4 to orchard road to see the x'mas lights (with val sccreaming and jumping in excitment)..hais.i miss her ard.

Today.Sat.
I spent my xmas eve afternoon with Guan fighting the terrible rain in Orchard, getting my Tatoo completed, shopping, going to little India for Henna and shoping for Guan mum's Pashminas. Problem is Little india sell slot of beautiful Saris which has silk scarfs.While Guan wants a scarf that can keep her mum warm, Saris are silk and meant to keep Ladies cool in hot S'pore weather. -_-'' Hunted all over bugis street was Guan's stuff. I was kinda broke after all the shopping in Orchard for my siblings and relative's last min xmas prezzies. So i'm going back to Bugis next wk!!! lolx. it has alot to offer. Any one care to join me??

Marie.We miss you. Where r u??? Seasons Call @ 12:23 AM

yubisaki ni wa mou todokanai
haruka na yozora e
kirameku hoshi o hodoite
hanashiteageyou


Stay with me nemuri ni tsuku made
yasashii te o hanasanaide
maigo ni natta osanai toki no you dane


kyou mado o aketara
kisetsu no ashioto kiita yo
aa kimi no shigusa ya egao ga
... boku no subete sa


i can't explain why i'm enchanted by the choir/voice of silent letter...its like vertigo.


Stay with me doushitara ii?
yasashii me ga togiresou
maigo ni natta osanai toki no you dane


... I have been thinking about you

Dear my Love tooi unabara mo
watatteku yo kono ude de
arashi no hi mo nido to mou osore wa shinai
Are you feeling namima ni miageta
hoshi no uzu ga kirei dayo
maigo ni natta osanai toki no you dane
... sayonara wa


Woohoo!!! its the festive season and work place is dead as a gvaveyard today =(
I just hope my boss is nice nuff' to give us the rest of the day off *sigh* i doubt it. i get to see darling Val later =) Seasons Call @ 2:10 PM

Tired.So tired i've overslept three days in a row. Ya of course i was late for work. Day one i ran and was in before the bus.Day two i took a cab because i woke up half hour b4 the actual work hour.And the Cab was so slow i decided to take the MRT on the third day despite the late hour.

How is work nowadays? haha...tiring.Very tiring.If i think sitting still doing admin was tough, i wasn't expecting all the tough dealing with outside cooperates or people.At times like this you'd realize working with computers or machines r a hell lot easier than people.Humans tend to be not foolproof,full of comments and they have other pple to deal with so they can't be 100% stand by all the time. Its tough shiat. but its good experience.

Sometimes sneaking a call using the office phone or using msn messenger on the office computer can be a really good stress reliever.tsk tsk.

Also, bringing the cousins and siblings out (yesterday evening after work) is really good for a stressful heart.Only problem is i was very worn out to begin with.So its the happy but weary feeling. Had dinner...Neoprints with kiddies, shopping...catching up....*sigh*

I manage to get a x'mas prezzie for Pam and Fel ( hoop earings and a spring dolphin respectively).They will always be children in my eyes...

Hmm...dunno what to get Nana.I got my dear E-ma a pair of X:odus shoes.She was so pleased with the shoes today.haha...Had lunch while i passed it to her.Dosa was delicious. The store at robinson road has the thickest and most mouth watering paste.



" in my heart i know i am wrong..." i had a pretty wierd dream before waking up today and realizing i was late.

" In this heart i know i can't take my eyes off you...Its not love.Or at least not a romantic sorta love.Its intellectual yet mind blowing,brotherly yet infatuative kind of love...nothing ive ever felt before...." (guan must be laughing now.)

Dear Guan i can't find the number. i'll search and let u know asap. If i can i'll direct you to the lady who assisted me so its easier for you and we may b able to go on wkend assignments together. If its a wkday assignment, you're on your own. Seasons Call @ 8:57 PM

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

Seasons Call @ 11:23 PM

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

Seasons Call @ 11:21 PM

You Were a Little Naughty This Year!

While you're not likely to greet Santa with sucker punch... He's still not too jolly about coming to your house. You might get a small token from Mr. Claus Like some detox pills for your liver.

Seasons Call @ 11:18 PM

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations. You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts. Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition. The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

Seasons Call @ 1:08 PM

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Kind Astrologer. Where You Lived: Texas. How You Died: Buried alive.

Seasons Call @ 1:06 PM

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Banished Executor of Sacrifices. Where You Lived: Greece. How You Died: Typhoid fever.

Seasons Call @ 1:04 PM

Drowning within the rhythm.
Grooving with the beat.
Celebrating the madness that’s brought me on my feet
Your Aura. our Charisma.
It strips me of no shame.
Soon you’d be drawn towards the dance floor of fame.

Beautiful Euphoria
That blinds me from reason or name.
Madness in Ophelia
Who lived in the Madhouse, just the same.

Sweetening of your soft lips
How can I resist?
If I am mistaken you were holding back all that energy.
Kiss me wildly, maybe softly if it kills.
Let me the Luxury of coming undone
In those masculine arms that is so much fun.

Locked in illusion
Come hither, dear Confusion.
Sweet ignorance.
Let madness be indulgence.

Overdose of Euphoria
Will leave you wasted by day.
Eternal nightly Euphoria;
Our lust shall by sunlight decay.

The Ephemeral will leave us disappointed…
Come, one night’s Euphoria doesn’t last forever… Seasons Call @ 10:09 AM

Seasons Call @ 4:22 PM

i wrote a song but left it in office.damn.

i planned a picnic at east coast and it just had to freakin' rain.
So Ivan and i ended up eating pizza and chatting in the backseat, barefooted in the comfort of the airconditioning and music in his car(his dear wife). It was cosy, pretty comical (esp when the rain poured 5 sec after we left the car) and turned out well.It felt good feelin all safe in a car while the storm beats wildly outside.

Watching the sky turn dark after the storm settled and watching plane fly by was amazing...

He had some office stuff to do so had to wait in the car while he went up doing his work for a while.i threathened to sell his wife for 5 bucks.tsk tsk.Was just kiddin'.really.

Had Ben&Jerry icecream which melted like no body's business and drinks at coffeebean...kinda sad the day ended so soon.arh well... Seasons Call @ 12:04 AM

Some will sing a song
To reel 'em in
It's a song I sung before
And a song I'm gonna sing again
I mean every word
I don't mean a single one of them
Oh Lord, make me pure
- but not yet

Tell a joke
Tell it twice
If noone else is laughing there why am i
I split myself both times and laugh till i cry
Oh Lord, please make me pure
- but not yet

I don't have to try
I just dial it in
I've never found a job that for me was worth bothering
I got a ton of selfish genes and lazy bones
Beneath this skin
Oh Lord, make me pure
- but not yet

Smoking kills
Sex sells
I've got one hand in my pocket but the other one looks cool as hell
I know I'm gonna die so my revenge is living well
Oh Lord, make me pure
- but not yet

I stopped praying
So I hope this song will do
I wrote it all for you
I'm not perfect but you don't mind that, do you?
I know you're there to pull me through, aren't you?

So I look for love
I like the search
And I'll be standing for election all across the known universe
Let every president get the country she deserves
Oh Lord, make me pure
- but not yet

And I've been seeing
Somebody's wife
She said she'd leave him for me and I said that wasn't wise
You can't lie to a liar because of all lies
Oh Lord, please make me pure
- not yet

Ivan, this is for you X) Seasons Call @ 7:06 PM

Office work today is at its slowest today.THank Goodness because i feel like a zombie this morning.I had barely 2 hours of sleep.Furthermore the Big boss's Big Boss (his dad/founder of the company) came around yesterday and everyone had so much work to do. I had to run many errands outdoors, plus rush indoor admin work. Sigh.Its like while you're handling one assignment (with many more piled up; holding different instructions), more work comes in. BIG Boss was freakish.that was yesterday. BTw i still smell like a cigarette like yesterday night.Pewh.My clothes.


One reason why i'm like a walking corpse now is because of too much euphoria yesterday.lolx. Angie,Guan,Caiwen and i had so much madness and fun at Momo yesterday. Everything was fantastically great except that i feel sorry for bringing tired Ivan with us; had i know he wasn't in the mood to club and was too worn out from work, i wouldn't have brought him along.Sorry Ivan =(
I’m also sorry for all the inconvenience and weariness the girls and me caused you. Although you said you were fine, I still feel really bad. Will make it up to ya Oh and apart from that I also apologize for being a nuisance in my drunken stupor. lolx… such as poking your tummy (eww… fats), tickling your ears, your neck, dragging you to the dance floor and talking nonsense. The Girls were wondering why u looked so stone. Well dear Ivan was dead tired after work. Maybe it wasn’t such a good idea had I known your schedule better.

After work yesterday, I dropped by the dentist(near my workplace) to see my sis and mum, gave my dear sis ten bucks to buy heaty snacks while waiting for my mum. Lolx. I scolded her for buying such unhealthy snacks and ended up chomping on it myself. I could only meet Ivan at 7:30pm ard raffles so i hanged around with my mum and sis before heading raffles to hunt for a keymaker (snigger.i've an office key all to myself). I was a total lost sheep at raffles. Kinda gave up since Ivan was already waiting at clifford pier to fetch mour. i don't know whether to laugh or cry at the comody:i was running down clifford centre (cause all elevators down were under renovation) because Ivan was waiting in the car only to find he had just lighted his cigarette(probably expecting blur me to take long)and had to waste it. X)i was still in my office attire with a dumb hairband and messed up hair.But i still looked cute,he says (before throwing away the stick).

He brought me to dinner at some ramen restuarant (can't rmb the name) which was really good. Btw, i'm currently trying to formulate a plan to prevent a "bill (bull?) fight" so i won't be a nuisence when i refuse to let you pay for everything.

Wore a head to toe black outfit which i bought with Guan on this monday night after work at Bugis street. It was sweet. X) it was so embarrassing needing Ivan to tie the black ribbon at the back of my nech which i can't reach.Argh.Ribbons. *giggles* He wore all black too XD that sweet guy treated me to dinner and gave my crazy girlfriends a lift together to MoMo (picked them up at 830 at Outram w caiwen late.Grr..)

Angie thought we were a very close of smthg.lolx.i hardly know him for a mth. Oh well he's just nice la.I think i like his company so i guess we are fast friends, angie dear.

Smart Caiwen was late.She didn't turn up till 10.She's smart cause' the crowd didn't start coming in till about then X( Miss all my girlfriends already.Some of em' i hadn't seen in a year or more. *hugs*

Guan promised me lotsa lovin' lolx. Yea..she gave me lotsa lovin in the dance floor that's for sure. I was thinking we should all bring ivan out one day for being so sweet in buying us girls drinks. He thought we might b bored with softdrinks (which is free on ladies night) so he got us two jugs of orange & Ribena Vodka *blushes* argh. i don't know whether to be happy or mad with his gentlemen gesture. Mayb i'll just break his credit card X))

yes still smell like a cigarette cuz the club was full of it and i sat next to ivan who smoked like constantine.no wait. i love constantine.He better than ivan.lolx *adores* Seasons Call @ 9:42 AM

*snigger*gonna sneak a post while the boss ain't around and lunch hour is not over yet. I just got back from lunching with my dear E-ma. She treated me to pasta. It was fantastic man. You don't get fresh delicious pasta on Amoi street everyday.Miss her already.Wait.She's only in the office building next to mine.lolx.

sigh.Sometimes i ask myself,why can't i be the one to make you smile?Why can't you be the one to give it back. God works in wierd ways.Well, magical ways. He gave me you. i loved you.Yet, he took it away.For what greater purpose i wonder.IF i knew,maybe i wouldn't be in ponder. Don't worry girl(and.guy.)friends, i'm perfectly fine,sane and independent.This is just a thought that comes by to knock in your heart once in a while.


"Watched Saw2 with the little bear on 7th....Finally getting back into the movie groove, with Narnia, Chicken Little and Advent Children all lined up. Sweet =) Set k little one?...I felt so sick I just sat there most of the time and stoned. God I hate being sick.. Meeting her just cheers me up though"

When i see that he has found happiness in someone else, i feel no jealousy or despair.I feel...Questioned.I ask myself, why the shiat am i staying up late at night in productless thoughts while he has moved on. I have moved on; but why can't i just forget? i am questioned; why is it someone else can provide what i could NOT ?? why is it he was UnaBle to give to me what he could give to someone else ?? Why can't i stop posting stupid questions and surpress my feelings?? Just Forget. WHy not??

Because that's not what love iS about i suppose.

(may it be to a friend, a parent or soulmate)I don't think love, in general, is so worthless that any human being could forget. Even those who move on always reserve that special place forthat special someone in their hearts. People never really forget. People were meant to be special because they possess the power to protect,sacrifice and Love.

And Ivan: no,i'm not "pure and innocent" as you think of me. Haha. You wish la. I'd give the half wrinkled years of my life to be that.That that once was.Your humourous msgs really accompanies me eveytime i visit my office level toilet.Because i think its haunted. No kiddin'.Sure, i'm all set for The Da Vinci COde =P
Sorry that my dear friends booked me for Memoirs of a Geisha.Didn't mean to disappoint you brudder. Seasons Call @ 1:23 PM

a pretty fun-filled wkend i suppose.

when you work, the wkends are treasure to you. Like me,you'd just want to maximise it before you enter mundance wkdays again.

Saturday:
-swim lessons. got a really fine tan and lots of energy=)
-long nap.
-watched Dawn of the Deadd (DVD) with my brother
- got a tummy ache frm eating the cheesecake i made myself. i threw it away.
-when to gramps hse.Family gathering.Glad to meet an aunt and uncle who i haven't seen in a year since they migrated to korea for a year. Missed them much.
-could get tix to harry potter so we had a family home movie watching Haunted Mansion

Sunday:
-dance lessons with my sister in the morning. its my first lesson so don't expect a professional.I've two left foot.
- meet Ivan in the early evening for dinner,movie and hanging out.Silly guy insisted on paying for everythg.You lil' byotch; tricked me into letting you pay for dinner and movie.haha.Dinner was fantastic.Oysters!!!Movie was like going for lit lesson (Pride & Prejudice) And it was really sweet of you to drive me home cuz i exceeded my curfew.Nice comfy black Car =P

Debster out. Seasons Call @ 11:00 PM

i don't know why. i use to hate that chinese dancing drama on at 9pm. Now i'm watching it. =P

learnt alot of new skills and multi-tasking at work...

Day one at work (wed):
- take phonecalls/take msgs
- write letters from client to insurer
-check complete claim forms
-printing of complete case/"claim" documents (includes receipts/tax inv/follow-upmails/minutes)
-knowing the big Insurance names
-connections: huge shipping,construction, business coporates
-email within the office (short msg/transfer calls/receive templates,etc)


Day two at work (thurs):
- sorting of expired insurance policies from coporate files A-Z
- write lettes from insurer to client
- differentiating client letter and insurer letters
- different print modes/ arrangements for respective type of documents (insurer/client)
-all of day one

Day three at work(today-fri=))
-all of the above
-sorting x'mas cards
-all the incomplete work from day two(the heaviest loaded day)
-sorting of expired policies from individual client files a-z
-access to confidential websites(sorry.can't elaborate much lest i get sued) with partner insurers
-how to type quote pages with reference to each case stack.
- " " " renewel motor claims

most of the time each case has thick stacks of original/printed documents.But the thicker the better cause most of the time all i need to do is source out the relevant info from the stack for my respective assignment and a huge part of the whole stack is cleared =P

i know everything above sounds kinda alien. But oh well... i felt the same as you on Day One.Tired. One word is all i can say about myself now.

i saw a dead man two blocks from my office building yesterday.It was freakie.Aunt (who works next building) was spooked out too...Police have handled the case.

(no real names used)
Hope Stac. gets well soon.She's a colleage who's been patient and very sweet.Pity she's feeling weak all the time. Btw, she the lady i'll be taking over once she goes on maternity leave. Till then she comes back to office to teach me new stuff when she's well nuff'. *sobs* Eve. will b on leave nxt monday.She just this hearty woman with a big laughter...A really nice lady too.

As a new girl i try to do my best in my job. It was pretty humorous when Eve. told me i need not ans calls in lunch hour when i was juggling lunching in the office and picking up phone calls. She even told a client not to call in lunch hour when the other line complained.ML, the acc. was sweet enough yesterday to tell me not to work OT over the assignment she gave me; that i could continue tmr and she didn't need it urgently.

Sweet bunch of colleagues.Thank GOd=P Seasons Call @ 9:47 PM

gawd i was to tired yesterday night to start wrtiing abt my first day at work in the office.i had only four hours of sleep the previous night and was completely knocked out last night.

the fatigue will numb you of all tears or loss... Seasons Call @ 9:11 AM

Work starts tommorrow from 8am-5pm.
i met the Big Boss of PB today.Whao Andrenaline was high. it was always agents and imformal interviews but never the firm directly. Oh well it went well and i guess everything went comfortablely.My office is one block next to my favourite Aunt's in Shenton.Yuppie.Tired and kinda moody still...oh well. Gotta sleep early.Nitey Seasons Call @ 10:50 PM

i call him Punk..the Ghost i adopted=) Seasons Call @ 12:58 PM

You have 8 from 10 questions correct.

You're morbidly obscene! Well, maybe not, but you have what it takes to call yourself a goth. Well done, all the Trannsylvanians are clapping for you. Seasons Call @ 12:45 PM

finally a firm calls to offer a fixed job. i've got one for a month at millenia walk; i just gotta sign the contract this afternoon.Then, i've to attend three informal interviews at various areas of spore (mostly central-south area)...slept at 3am yesterday. Insomnia. Suck like hell i feel like a zombie this morning.Funny. i watched the "Corpse Bride" Dvd while eating breakfast/Branch.

Good Question:

Can a heart break even when it stops beating??

You're sorry for being such an asshole.Excuse? felt cranky.No problem. i wasnt such an angel myself. Seasons Call @ 12:37 PM

a.i read the old entires to His blog since june 04. it felt kinda nolstagic but oh well...better not regress into the past and lose myself.

b.I just had a chat with another Guyfriend who's returned to China for the Hols. It turns out he's asking if the two of us could hang out (just the two of us i think??) when he returns in Jan06. i was pretty surprise though. i thought he didn't really like me much but anyway its good to know he hasn't froze YET and is hinting towards an outing. Sweet.

c.Another Guy i just chatted with this evening seems wierdly and easily amused with everything i do ( like i am "bittersweet" and "tantalising") man i dun wan2 be no one's idol man...i predict he'd probably get the guts to ask me out directly (he's been pretty charming yet indirect you see.)Whatever it is, i'm going off to watch a home movie with my family. its better than being idolized.Seriously, its kinda fun talking to this guy but a lil' wierd at the same time. Wierder thing is he ain't nerd but an educated A class working young fellow...oh well.Gee Wh Seasons Call @ 10:24 PM

i can't rmb much productivity today. let me see...

first. i woke up at 10am after staying up to watch a home movie.Second.i had such a filling breakfast i skipped lunch.yes i am on empty stomach now (waiting for the home pizza to come). Third. Went with mum to sign my sister and i up for a MTV dance class for fun. Forth. My parents and i went to crowded and scotching hot town to shop for my Cds, X'mas gifts, weekend grocery shopping and tmr's breakfast. While my parents had their lunch at a jp restuarant, i eat tamago snacks and momo icecream.Great, junk food for "lunch".At least i managed to get the CDs i wanted: Electrico, L'Arc-en-ciel("real" to complete my entire collection 1992-2005)

life. i can never understand or embrace everything. =) Seasons Call @ 6:30 PM

i can't rmb much productivity today. let me see...

first. i woke up at 10am after staying up to watch a home movie.Second.i had such a filling breakfast i skipped lunch.yes i am on empty stomach now (waiting for the home pizza to come). Third. Went with mum to sign my sister and i up for a MTV dance class for fun. Forth. My parents and i went to crowded and scotching hot town to shop for my Cds, X'mas gifts, weekend grocery shopping and tmr's breakfast. While my parents had their lunch at a jp restuarant, i eat tamago snacks and momo icecream.Great, junk food for "lunch".At least i managed to get the CDs i wanted: Electrico, L'Arc-en-ciel("real" to complete my entire collection 1992-2005)

life. i can never understand or embrace everything. =) Seasons Call @ 6:30 PM

Today was one crappy day man.yeah i'm still in da mood. so unless you are my friend( in which i adore them) and have something impt to say, go away.

Unfortunate events:

1. i was a total blur on my first assignment under HREVG.

2. i got fired even before i started work because of my shoes (the boss wanted dull black but i had leather black court shoes.gee...whats the difference. Other pple got sent off for wrong socks and hair colour; i wasn't that bad.)

3. Got into a big argument cuz my parents won't let me work at Attica. Good pay. Sweet nightlife. Groovy atmosphere. Yet all thrown out of the window cuz they didn't like it. Geez... " get a decent office job" they say. Have they ever asked what i wanted and let me?? its my holiday and i've been the lovin' sweet goodie-two-shoes for 19 yrs for Christ sake =(

i know they mean well but it sux to have to live in regret just because they DID NOT LIKE IT. It's happened too many times.
As USUAL, the preference to avoid a fight made me weak.Too weak to fight for what i want.

4.my toes still hurt. Stupid assignment.

fortunate events:

1. enjoyed all that andrenaline during preparation for my first assignment...in the midst of careless adults and harsh pple.

2. i loved the Cheese Ramen for lunch

3. i'm working under a head-hunting agency so i'm not exactly unemployed.Merely fired from that single assignment.

nights pple=)

You know who you are:: if you're reading this, you must know that i lied. i lied to you when you asked if the reason to my fear of marriage and meanness to some guys who try to get fresh was because of our failed relationship. i said NO,it was my own decision. Actually it was a decision because nothing YET can heal the wounds of what we failed to create. So i lied about you not being the reason for my change in hopes and fears... Seasons Call @ 11:33 PM

man i feel like crap today. i wasn't in the closest mood to go out or shop or do anything, which is probably why i bought so little things today. My family an i took a little time off this afternoon to take a short trip to JB. Had lunch there; the Food was GOOD at citysquare!!! We did alot of shopping but i only bought these:

1. an EMILY SQUARE bag
2. lots of DVDs
3. a dreamcatcher neaklace
4. some x'mas items
5. a brush cuz my mum thought it was gross the way i apply lip gloss with my finger.

Items i couldn't get:
1.jeans/pants...i badly need new bottoms( no size for pettite,yet hip-ish me)
2.QQ NMBX'mas Bag (too expensive)
3.New gym clothes ( no good designs in my opinion )

oh well, hint hint... get me the things i couldn't get for x'mas.lolx.

Swensens were selling sundaes at 50% off. So we had huge deserts after lunch and some shopping. Yup...i think yesterday's gym workout is wasted away on all that icecream,fudge and whipped cream =)
out. Seasons Call @ 11:11 PM

So Punk, Which Sex Pistol are YOU?

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Seasons Call @ 12:09 PM